Now This Is A Sign!, (from my Little Nis') Options

[Furkidlets' Mom]

My grief has been simply terrible of late and with still fretting over the lack of signs from my gal, and both Sabin's and Nissa's birthday coming up on the 20th (and woulda been both of their 20th years), followed rapidly by the fifth month of Nissa's departure on the 23rd of this month as well.....my heart has been even more broken than ever before.

BUT....yesterday was a day of sudden 'reprieves'.....unbelievable, yet totally believable as well! While I've been avoiding music as much as possible since Nissa's been gone, my H happened to have our computer playing some in late afternoon. Since I was about to leave the room anyway, I didn't ask him to turn it off for my sake. But before I left, I asked my H to join me in asking Nissa to send me a message because of where I was going later on (see below), and he agreed to do so. Before I knew it, the song "The Year of the Cat" came on.....and THEN I ran for the stairs to get away. Yet, when I got upstairs, my inner voice told me to turn on my radio up there.....just in case there was a message to be had from my girl (considering the song I'd just run away from). So I did, and was tuning it away from the talk show that was on when I heard this snippet from this other talk show....about spiritual stuff....and the value of getting quiet in order to find God more easily. No sooner than they'd started yakking about this concept, the guest speaker mentioned that, related to this aspect, he'd done some reading about someone else's ideas about this....a certain someone named....Greg of Nissa!!!!!!! Now I don't know who in the heck this Greg guy is, and frankly, I doubt it matters a whit.....but his NAME, which I clearly heard (even if it's spelled differently, that's how it sounded).....well, come ON!....not only the Nissa part, but the entire t*itle is only ONE letter short of one of our humourous variations on Nissa's name.....Nissa The Grey!!! ....or Grey of Nissa!! Well!.....how much more obscure can you get?!?!? I NEVER hear her name.....anywhere! And yet here it was, right in front of me, right after I'd listened to my inner voice. Not only that, but I've been intuiting of late that, in order to make contact with her, I felt I would have to return to practising getting quiet....the very topic that had preceded this.

And the messages didn't stop there, either. I'd gone upstairs for the express purpose of getting ready to attend my first service ever at a Spiritualist church in the city. It was to be a "Messages Only" service, the first since the holidays, and I asked my girl to BE there with me and to try and come through again. Well, not knowing what to expect really, I was first struck by the harpist/soloist's choice of songs for the evening, which was about a couple taking pleasure in the small joys of life...and the woman having their CAT on her lap as they all relaxed together. Then, out of a group of about 30-odd people...I got a reading! Not only was it bang-on about my cir%%stances and how I've been feeling...but mention was made of a major loss, the inner strength I really do have inside, AND that my loved ones are busy sending me strength all the time!! There was more, all accurate, but this, to me, was the highlight. MY GIRL WAS THERE.....4 times in one day, bang, bang, bang, bang!

Oh, my Galski.....thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouTHANKYOU!!!!! You ARE here for me, just as you promised you'd be....always!!!! I LOOOOOOVE you, my Cuddle-Button!!!! Please help me to reach those states of quietude....so that I can FEEL you, know that I'm WITH you and you're with ME, as always, and that this will NEVER, EVER change! My girl, my Love-Dove, my Nissa The Grey of the Clan McGrey....you are a wonder among wonders and Mommy will try even harder now...now that you've given me HOPE, and your big, pink, fuzzy love...ever mine....I love you, my Niski-Pie!!!

[Furkidlets' Mom]

WOW, E.M.!!! I'm so glad you shared your remarkable experiences here! I have to say that I'm jealous as heck about you actually SEEING Denis (and I've wondered...is his name pronounced like the English "Dennis", or the French "Den-EE"?)!! This is what I've always wished for, from both Sabin and Nissa, as it seems to me to be one of the best signs one could get. Sure, I've had the ol' out-of-the-corner-of-your-eye type of visual ADC, at least with Sabin on several occasions, but that's not as satisfying somehow, as it's not clear, is so fleeting and looks only like a dark streak that you don't really get to focus on.

So I have to ask now...when it happened that "in walked Denis", did he look solid, detailed as normal and the like???? And how long did he stay that time? Did he just disappear suddenly, or fade/'mist' out slowly? Did you have enough time to say what you did to him?

I most certainly DON'T think you're "a little bonkers" with any of this! Your accounts are no different than MANY others I've read about, or been told about, for either human or animal visitations. And as for the talking to them about it, asking for signs, etc.....well, this is the sadder part. Knowing already that they can not only hear us talking, but can even hear our thoughts (telepathy IS the normal mode of communicating in spirit...and besides, Sabin and Nissa and I did it all the time in the physical) when directed to them, I've had no compunction about asking, even pleading, for signs. But...that hasn't necessarily netted me the results, and that's what bothers me so much. While recently it DOES seem like Nissa is favouring coming through with her actual NAME (and patterns of signs are most confirming of actual messages, too), and I'm grateful for ANY ol' way she can get through....I just want, and even need, more. I've asked for dream visits (asking her directly, asking my Higher Self to help, asking my Source...and and all) and for me to remember them...but only gotten one visitation that I can say w/o any doubt actually was one. I've even asked Sabin, and other Higher Beings to help Nissa, with figuring out how to do this, with her energy levels if that's a problem. While I think this may have helped some, I'm still not getting either tactile, auditory, visual or MORE dream visitations...and those are the ones that I know help keep me sane.

So....I'm really beginning to suspect that it's the diet thing, in large part. When we lost Sabin, we'd been vegetarian for quite a few years, AND at the time I was also on a ridiculously restricted wholefoods diet (as in not even many usual wholefoods allowed! and NO sugars of any kind, even the better ones... a few fish were suggested, but I ignored that). Now while the restrictions promptly went right out the window soon after he'd gone (out came bags of cookies and Kraft Dinner, as I hadn't been eating much for at least a month before, and I needed some kind of easy and comfort food), I'm sure my vibrational level was much higher than it is today, after returning more to sweets and occasional flesh, despite my guilty conscience (when I get sorrowful or depressed, my head wants to return to the diet of my youth). I've forced myself to start making more of an effort to return to our usual wholefoods, veg. way of eating, with the main stumbling block being I still just don't have much desire to spend much time in the kitchen. It's hard, after practically living in there with all of Nissa's food and supplement regimes requiring more and more time and effort in the last 2 years of her life. And this is despite always having been an old-time cook, making most things from scratch, cooking gourmet veg. food...and loving cooking! Now I could care less, even though I still like good food; just don't want to make it myself. But if this is what it's going to take....So I'm very glad, too, that you mentioned this as well!

I do like the fact that you told Denis that your requests were in part " to maintain and strenghten our connection between our two planes of existence," and so I've already sat down and told my girl that, too...just in case there was any confusion. I had already told her that I was sorry if I'd been pushing too hard, expecting too much if her energy &/or abilities just weren't up to the types of visitations I'd prefer...and soon after that, I got her 'name' sign, plus a couple of songs and one other more general message via radio (about the direction I should take in my life).

Anyway, I thank you MUCHLY for all this, and if there's anything else you (or anyone else) would like to add, feel free! I can't ever get enough of this kind of talk!

Hugs,
F.'s Mom