Now This Is A Sign!, (from my Little Nis') Options

[Furkidlets' Mom]

My grief has been simply terrible of late and with still fretting over the lack of signs from my gal, and both Sabin's and Nissa's birthday coming up on the 20th (and woulda been both of their 20th years), followed rapidly by the fifth month of Nissa's departure on the 23rd of this month as well.....my heart has been even more broken than ever before.

BUT....yesterday was a day of sudden 'reprieves'.....unbelievable, yet totally believable as well! While I've been avoiding music as much as possible since Nissa's been gone, my H happened to have our computer playing some in late afternoon. Since I was about to leave the room anyway, I didn't ask him to turn it off for my sake. But before I left, I asked my H to join me in asking Nissa to send me a message because of where I was going later on (see below), and he agreed to do so. Before I knew it, the song "The Year of the Cat" came on.....and THEN I ran for the stairs to get away. Yet, when I got upstairs, my inner voice told me to turn on my radio up there.....just in case there was a message to be had from my girl (considering the song I'd just run away from). So I did, and was tuning it away from the talk show that was on when I heard this snippet from this other talk show....about spiritual stuff....and the value of getting quiet in order to find God more easily. No sooner than they'd started yakking about this concept, the guest speaker mentioned that, related to this aspect, he'd done some reading about someone else's ideas about this....a certain someone named....Greg of Nissa!!!!!!! Now I don't know who in the heck this Greg guy is, and frankly, I doubt it matters a whit.....but his NAME, which I clearly heard (even if it's spelled differently, that's how it sounded).....well, come ON!....not only the Nissa part, but the entire t*itle is only ONE letter short of one of our humourous variations on Nissa's name.....Nissa The Grey!!! ....or Grey of Nissa!! Well!.....how much more obscure can you get?!?!? I NEVER hear her name.....anywhere! And yet here it was, right in front of me, right after I'd listened to my inner voice. Not only that, but I've been intuiting of late that, in order to make contact with her, I felt I would have to return to practising getting quiet....the very topic that had preceded this.

And the messages didn't stop there, either. I'd gone upstairs for the express purpose of getting ready to attend my first service ever at a Spiritualist church in the city. It was to be a "Messages Only" service, the first since the holidays, and I asked my girl to BE there with me and to try and come through again. Well, not knowing what to expect really, I was first struck by the harpist/soloist's choice of songs for the evening, which was about a couple taking pleasure in the small joys of life...and the woman having their CAT on her lap as they all relaxed together. Then, out of a group of about 30-odd people...I got a reading! Not only was it bang-on about my cir%%stances and how I've been feeling...but mention was made of a major loss, the inner strength I really do have inside, AND that my loved ones are busy sending me strength all the time!! There was more, all accurate, but this, to me, was the highlight. MY GIRL WAS THERE.....4 times in one day, bang, bang, bang, bang!

Oh, my Galski.....thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouTHANKYOU!!!!! You ARE here for me, just as you promised you'd be....always!!!! I LOOOOOOVE you, my Cuddle-Button!!!! Please help me to reach those states of quietude....so that I can FEEL you, know that I'm WITH you and you're with ME, as always, and that this will NEVER, EVER change! My girl, my Love-Dove, my Nissa The Grey of the Clan McGrey....you are a wonder among wonders and Mommy will try even harder now...now that you've given me HOPE, and your big, pink, fuzzy love...ever mine....I love you, my Niski-Pie!!!

[Furkidlets' Mom]

RL,

You actually SAW Boo?!?!?!? Could you explain this more? Yes, I do believe it since I've read in a few other books of instances like this...even a few where people (usually not the guardians of the particular animal, though) even touched, felt and got responses from passed animals...not knowing they'd even passed on until told later. BUT, I've not met yet, until now, anyone who actually saw their OWN...and more than once!

To me, it sounds like you've already had some pretty darn powerful signs from Boo. While I've had a few dream visitations from Sabin myself ( like yours, very "real" feeling and full of tactile sensations and other stuff ), this song thing is something very different from the usual signs I'm familiar with (from experience and reading). So, your Boo is very good at getting you to pay attention! Or, you're very good at receiving, just by being yourself!

By "getting quiet", I meant any method of quieting down the mind/thoughts, whether that be meditation, animal communication exercises, repetetive motions that slow your thinking....anything that works or helps. And since that day of signs, it also struck me that I had more hope and BELIEF that Nissa would at least be with me that evening, as I'd asked my Mum to do the same after she'd passed, when I was going to a grief group....and she DID show up, by playing with the lights during the group meeting one night. So perhaps it was a combination of getting quieter AND believing it could happen (faith in it) that helped Nissa to come through?

Yes, I believe it's a matter of energy fields, but also of thought and belief, that helps us communicate, or 'break thru the thin veil'. Pretty much all mediums will say that we can ALL improve our natural ability to communicate, but some of us are just more attuned to it in the first place, and everyone's personal skills will be different, just as they are in other areas. Some will receive feelings, or images, or smells, or pictures or combo's of all, etc. It also apparently helps to raise your energy vibrations if you do some form of meditation, and eat a vegetarian or vegan diet. Sharon Callahan (famous animal communicator) was told, by the animals, that if she ATE any of them, they wouldn't talk to her (who could blame them?)....so she became even more exacting in her dietary choices. Kim S. is also a vegan. The vibrational thing also helps explain why we're often easier to 'reach' when we're in that brief period before we've gotten up, but we're also not still asleep...or in the same state when falling asleep. This is usually when people can feel their loved ones jump onto their bed. I WISH I'd have one of those myself!!!

Paula,

I know how utterly frustrating it is when we don't receive either any, or not enough, or not the ones we'd prefer, when it comes to signs of our babies' continuing life. And then, to hear of others' 'success stories'.....it drives the hurt and pain into a real frenzy!! I always share my own 'successes' with a mixture of gladness AND sympathy for others who haven't had any or enough of their own.....cuz I KNOW how awful it feels to be in the other camp. But sometimes, after reading about others' signs, some people only THEN realize that they, too, have had signs, and just didn't recognize them as such. So I feel a duty to report any that come my way.

But I've felt, and frankly, still do...in between any signs.....just like you do. And the moment I read about an even bigger and better one, that I haven't had myself.....I'm back to asking the same questions you do. Sometimes I even feel both grateful and discouraged, all at the same time! That's just grief talking and is to be expected, even if not welcome.

I wish I had answers to ALL of these dilemmas...truly I do! There is a site called Prayer Wave (I think that's the name) that was designed to not only educate about signs, but to take requests for those wishing to receive a sign. I've not done so myself (yet?) but may still at some point. They claim that mass prayer DOES help, and they do a group prayer type thing on Friday nights, for everyone's requests. You may want to check it out. In the meantime, I'll put my own little prayer in, for you and all others who need this reassuring measure of a loved one's existence NOW, also including myself, as always!

Jules,

Yes, that probably was a sign! I received MANY, in much the same manner, from Sabin, through the T.V., where I'd just happen to tune into a show that suddenly addressed something I'd been fretting about over his passing. It's extraordinary when that happens and I'm glad you're starting to get what I hope will be continuing messages from Zappa!

Renee and Lori,

Thanks for the congrats, and for your faith in both Nissa and me! I hope beyond measure that in a few months or years I'll have about as big a list of signs from my gal as I already have from her brother. Many times, that's the only thing that keeps me going....and I'm simply greedy for them!

And especially so today....because it is hers and Sabin's Birthday and I need to know they're around me on this special day...Jan.20, where they would have both been 20 were they still here. We really did think Nissa was going to make it to her 20th....even though 19yrs and 7 months is pretty close to that. It just doesn't seem right that she didn't....oh gawd, I miss my kids, and right now, especially my girl.