3 Months..., since pooh-bears passing Options

[michelles kitty]

sigh,
its been three months since pooh has passed to the bridge. i cant believe it. its so lonely without feline feet in the house.
this friday it will be one month since kittens passing. i hope they are together.
i cry almost everyday. the pain and the hurt is still there. but its the loneliness that gets me. i turn corners in the house expecting to see them. curled up upon the couch together or sprawled out on my bed. waiting to be fed and meowing loudly if it was past the time to be fed(by minutes actually) i drove up the driveway the other day and half expected to see them lookin out the window for me to come in. but it is not to be. i miss them so much.

my older dog tee was wanting a belly rub today and i discovered a cyst or something under her tail i thought it was a tick or something. but it is not. needing to make an appt tomorrow to get it checked out.(she's 11) and praying that it is benign. i cant take another another lovey to go to the bridge. please pray that it is nothing.
the heartache continues...

[Furkidlets' Mom]

Michelle,

I'm so sorry you're feeling as lonely as I am, too. It rips your guts out, I know, to still be expecting to see one's furbabies where they 'ought' to be. This is called "searching", in grief-lingo, btw, and can go on for a long time, even if you're grieving in a "healthy" way. It's brutal, though, and the let-down and shock we feel each time we re-realize our new reality takes a terrible and cu*mulative toll on our hearts, each and every time it happens....a repeated blow that never seems to end.

I, too, hope that Nissa and Sabin are together, at least most of the time, but even that's a continual worry...one never stops being a Mom.

I was just talking yesterday about the loneliness, too. It's like a break from the constant 'doing' and worrying for my Nis' in her last months...but it NEVER ENDS and I never, ever could stand being away from her for more than a few hours at a time. So now it's sheer torture that's been forced upon me w/o my consent!

I've already sent prayers for Tee and whatever that bump is and we'll all hope for the very best, and for a severely-needed break for you from the worry and sorrow! Take care and let us know what comes of it. You're in my thoughts, Michelle.