I Can't Really Believe He's Actually Gone!, My boy passed away 4 days ago Options

[jazmin]

I just can't believe it? I just can't. How is it that he's really gone? That I won't be able to give him belly rubs, or put my hand under his little head (he always loved that sometimes I wold just let him sleep like that). He had the most amazing personality, so intellegent and regal, so loving and so so sweet. How is it that I don't get to see him anymore.

I come home and want ot call his name, I go into my bedroom and think I will see him there on the bed. My best friend is know gone, my baby, I know they say it will get easier but how does it he was in my life since I was 11 years old I'm now 26, that's most of my life at this point.

I seem to cry at any little thing, watching **, or shows that I use to distract myself, death is always there i seem to see it screaming at me. I put a good face on to friends as I dont 'want them to see just how heartbroken I really am. I was in an almost fatal car accident last year and have grown very good at putting on a face. I want people around me to have fun, have a good time, I try and laugh, it's so hard. There will never be another Zack as long as I live, I just can't believe he's gone.

xxJaz

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[ryancat]

Jazmin,I have been thinking about you and wondering how you were doing.I am so sorry for your loss.I wish there was something I could say to you to make the pain go away but I hope you know that my thoughts and prayers have been with you these past few days.Time will help ease the pain somewhat and I hope it helps to know that you are not alone in your grief.There are many of us here who are going thur the same thing as you are.We know your pain and sometimes it is unbearable..........It helps me to come here and write out my feelings to others who know what I'm going thur.Please keep in touch and let us know how your doing.We care..Sincerely,Renee (Sox's mom) P.S.I will keep you in my prayers!