Tomorrow's The Day, Making the decision Options

[PuppyMom]

[FONT=Times][COLOR=blue]Some people know me as the dog lady. I have 4 beautiful dogs (I call them puppies even though they are all 10 years plus) and some people just don't understand. They are all my children. I love them so intensely and the people on this site can probably all empathize.

My Dixie Dog first started limping the beginning of March and then blew up like a balloon a few days later. The fluid around her sweet heart was so thick that the vet couldn't even see her heart. After 4 days of lasik and a loss of 15 pounds of fluid, she had x-rays that showed her heart very enlarged and bone cancer.

Since then, I've seen her quickly go downhill and today, she finally lost that beautiful light in her eyes. I sit here barely being able to look through mine, because I have made the decision to help her leave this world and go to Sammi and Lexi (the original Alfa when all 5 were here and my first kitty). I can't even believe that I'll be able to do it. I love her soooo much. I'm already doing the guilt thing like that I didn't give her enough attention, etc. The truth is that the amount of attention I've given these beautiful beings is like what most people do for their human kids.

How am I going to play God tomorrow and make this decision? How can I live without her?

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[ravenkiddy]

Sue,

Thank you for the heartfelt words you left for me. I really needed them. I wanted to reply again to you. I know how hard this is, Dixie is one lucky puppy to have such a wounderful loving mommy. Enjoy this last few hours with your baby (I know you are going to cherish them) and Dixie will cherish them as well. I am asking my baby Pumpkin to meet Dixie at the bridge when it is her time. I know you wanted to get Dixie's ashes, that was a sweet thing you wanted to do (mix yours with hers). I was only able to keep some fur. I couldnt afford the ashes to be returned after all the treatments I had paid for, and my township doesnt allow you to bury your pets. I still have a memorial marker and when I finally get it (had it personalized) I will still visit it everyday. I know Pumpkin isnt in the ground he is my heart as will Dixie be, until we all meet again!

Thank you and sending (((((HUGS))))

Michelle

"if love could have saved you , you would have lived forever"