Tomorrow's The Day, Making the decision Options

[PuppyMom]

[FONT=Times][COLOR=blue]Some people know me as the dog lady. I have 4 beautiful dogs (I call them puppies even though they are all 10 years plus) and some people just don't understand. They are all my children. I love them so intensely and the people on this site can probably all empathize.

My Dixie Dog first started limping the beginning of March and then blew up like a balloon a few days later. The fluid around her sweet heart was so thick that the vet couldn't even see her heart. After 4 days of lasik and a loss of 15 pounds of fluid, she had x-rays that showed her heart very enlarged and bone cancer.

Since then, I've seen her quickly go downhill and today, she finally lost that beautiful light in her eyes. I sit here barely being able to look through mine, because I have made the decision to help her leave this world and go to Sammi and Lexi (the original Alfa when all 5 were here and my first kitty). I can't even believe that I'll be able to do it. I love her soooo much. I'm already doing the guilt thing like that I didn't give her enough attention, etc. The truth is that the amount of attention I've given these beautiful beings is like what most people do for their human kids.

How am I going to play God tomorrow and make this decision? How can I live without her?

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[ravenkiddy]

Puppymom,

I am so sorry for what you are going through. You are not "playing god" you are giving your love one last gift. No pain. You know its time, Dixie let you know it was time. I know how hard it is, I had to pts my Pumpkin on the 11th. I never thought I could do it, but my love for him took front seat. I couldnt let him suffer. I put my feeling aside and listened to him. It is so hard but you can do it. You love Dixie. I can feel it through your words.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and Dixie.
Michelle