Taylors Rose, A gift? Options

[Taylorsmum]

Hello.
I just want to share something.

I really love my garden and throughout spring I was planting and landscaping getting all ready for summer.

On the 3rd June we had to let Taylor my beautiful bulldog go.
It has crushed me.
When we returned home I noticed that the first rose on my tree had opened and I was pretty angry about it. Nothing was beautiful anymore. My husband said it's Taylors rose.
I was pretty close to destroying my garden because it seemed obscene that it could start to flourish and look pretty when all I felt was despair.
As days passed I would glance at the rose not really admiring it but feeling it was a reminder.
The last few days the other roses have now opened. They are red. All red, except the first one which is fuscia in colour.
I rang my mum and asked her if roses on the same bush could be a different colour. She told me she didnt think so and had never seen it.

When my husband came home I showed him the rose and asked 'is that a different colour to the rest?' a reality check for me! He said 'yes..why'

I checked out the roses name and they are called 'love knots'.
I have now taken the rose before its petals fall and I am pressing the flower. I will frame it and name it 'Taylor's Rose'.

I asked for a sign that she is somewhere safe and happy. I think I received my sign in a slightly different manner than I was expecting.
When I thought that perhaps my girl sent me a rose I cried a bucket but as a cynic who desperately wants to believe, my strange rose is bringing some comfort.

I like to think she's telling me that she WILL be waiting at Rainbow Bridge.

Think of all those amazing reunions! Peace to you all.

[Emily's Mom]

Thank you so much for posting the link .I too, cried like a baby the first time and had to watch it twice to see what I missed the first time.It will be 6 weeks tomorrow that I had to send my sweet baby Emily to The Rainbow Bridge.
I have cried enough tears to flood a country in a drought.

Someday's I feel I can't go on.The mornings are the worst. I hate waking up and not seeing Emily sleeping in her bed next to ours. I feel so alone in my grief at times it's like nobody understands the pain and heartache that losing a furbaby can bring.

I hold her ashes, I cry, I apologize ,I talk to her and I try to understand but I don't. Nothing makes sense. I only know that it hurts.
It honestly feels like my heart has been ripped out. There is such a hole, an emptiness that goes so deep into my soul that I know I'll never be the same person I was before I lost Emily.

I can't find any pet loss support groups out here where I live and that's why I am so grateful for this site.
Thank you so much to everyone for understanding.