Am I Ready? Options

[brandyandsoshi]

My cat, Soshi, died two weeks ago tomorrow.
The day after she died, in an attempt to fill that void, I went online to find a new cat. I filled out an application for an aby rescue (Soshi was aby), and asked about a few cats they had available.
I got a reply that my app was accepted, but that was it.
Just today, an email came about an aby kitten in a high-kill shelter in Northern Cali (I live in the Southern part). I might call about him. I might go get him if he's still there.
There was a pic attatched to the email, and he's beautiful. And in a tiny cage, poor baby.
Am I ready, though?
Would Soshi be mad? Would she think I've forgotten her? I still miss her terribly - will that be fair to a new cat? Am I over-thinking this, as I've not yet even found out if that kitten is still available?
Does anyone have any insight on this, I'm sure someone must, because I'm a little confused...
Love,
Brandy

[brandyandsoshi]

Well, I called the shelter yesterday and got my answer - the little guy has already found a home!
So, I am so happy that kitten found someone, and I know it means my future furbaby is still to come.
I do think Soshi would want me to love another kitty - she just hated other cats! I rescued her from a home with three cats who picked on her, and she was happiest as an only child.
On a different note, I had a dream about her last night. She was healthy, and I was a little surprised to see her (because, of course, I didn't realize I was dreaming), and I was like, Soshi! You feel better! And she meowed (she always used to carry on 'conversations' with you, it was too cute). We talked a little, and I gave her an extra large serving of tuna, because she hadn't eaten in so long (um, yes, she used to get tuna twice a day - high protein diet for her diabetes).
It was comforting. I petted her, too, which I miss terribly.
Well, thank you so much for the input. I guess I knew it already, but I needed to hear it, if you know what I mean.
Love,
Brandy