Am I Ready? Options

[brandyandsoshi]

My cat, Soshi, died two weeks ago tomorrow.
The day after she died, in an attempt to fill that void, I went online to find a new cat. I filled out an application for an aby rescue (Soshi was aby), and asked about a few cats they had available.
I got a reply that my app was accepted, but that was it.
Just today, an email came about an aby kitten in a high-kill shelter in Northern Cali (I live in the Southern part). I might call about him. I might go get him if he's still there.
There was a pic attatched to the email, and he's beautiful. And in a tiny cage, poor baby.
Am I ready, though?
Would Soshi be mad? Would she think I've forgotten her? I still miss her terribly - will that be fair to a new cat? Am I over-thinking this, as I've not yet even found out if that kitten is still available?
Does anyone have any insight on this, I'm sure someone must, because I'm a little confused...
Love,
Brandy

[5catsmom]

Brandy,
I agree completely with Kim about this, and I think it's entirely possible that Soshi helped you find this kitten at a time when it needs you as much as you need it. I got another cat soon after my Heidi passed away in 2001 - about 2 weeks later, in fact - and although she was sort of temperamental when she was here with me, I always kind of felt Heidi's been watching through the years in approval as I've adopted 4 more cats. It's defiitely a tribute to the love you and Soshi had, and have, that you can offer love to another pet now. I've never loved or thought less of Heidi when bringing in my other cats, and I think she taught me how to love my other furbabies, in a way.

Please let us know what happens - I'm really happy for you, and Soshi, and any new kitty you adopt. Take care - Barbara