Am I Ready? Options

[brandyandsoshi]

My cat, Soshi, died two weeks ago tomorrow.
The day after she died, in an attempt to fill that void, I went online to find a new cat. I filled out an application for an aby rescue (Soshi was aby), and asked about a few cats they had available.
I got a reply that my app was accepted, but that was it.
Just today, an email came about an aby kitten in a high-kill shelter in Northern Cali (I live in the Southern part). I might call about him. I might go get him if he's still there.
There was a pic attatched to the email, and he's beautiful. And in a tiny cage, poor baby.
Am I ready, though?
Would Soshi be mad? Would she think I've forgotten her? I still miss her terribly - will that be fair to a new cat? Am I over-thinking this, as I've not yet even found out if that kitten is still available?
Does anyone have any insight on this, I'm sure someone must, because I'm a little confused...
Love,
Brandy