Does Anyone Else Not Want To Vacuum? Options

[tammy]

I'ts been 5 days since my cat Diapey died. My apartment is a total mess. But I don't want to vacuum because it will suck up her cat hair and I feel like it will be "erasing" her from ever being here. And I don't want to wash the blanket on top of my bed because I think that too will be wiping her away. If I wash the blanket and vacuum, what's left here of her?! Does anyone else feel like that?

I'm supposed to go on vacation with friends a week from tomorrow and I just don't think I'll be up for it. Should I make myself go? Any recommendations? If I don't go, how do I explain this to my friends without sounding like a crazy person?

And it really sucks to to wake up in the morning, and as soon as I open my eyes, my heart just sinks.
I don't even have to think about her; my heart is so heavy.

Thanks for listening again. And I am sorry to all those who have lost their pets too.
-Tammy

[MattieGirl]

Hello Tammy--So sorry for your loss. It has been 5 days also since I lost my Mattie(dog). I know exactly how you feel about not wanting to vacuum or clean the bed. If I don't, then a part of her is still here--at least a part that I can actually see. And I don't want her to look down and see that I can just brush her away so fast, cuz I can't.
As far as going on vacation, I think I would try to go----maybe it will help, just getting out of the house. Your Diapey will always be with you wherever you are.
--Mary