My Handsome Boy Cosby, How will I know when to let go? Options

[cosby]

Hello Friends,

I took my cat Cosby to the vet this Tuesday because I thought he looked too skinny. I thought he would give me some advice on how to change his diet. Well, he gave me more info than I bargained for. He felt two masses inside his stomach. He did xrays and bloodwork to confirm. We decided to have an ultrasound on Thursday. They allowed me to come in the back and view the sonogram. There were two large black masses on the monitor. Cosby just sat there like a good boy while they rubbed the machine over his tummy. The vet said it's lymphoma and has attatched to the kidneys. I thought I was going to passout when they told me. Tears poured from my eyes. Cosby is 16 years old. My parents gave him to me when I was 8 years old, I am almost 25. We have been through thick and thin together. It's so hard to think about life without him. Today is Sunday and I have seen a rapid progression of the disease. His appetite was good up until today. I am hand feeding him baby food. He has been hiding in the closet for most of the day. He is getting weak. I just hate seeing him disintegrate each day. I feel totally helpless.

Nicole

[Ann H]

Hi Nicole, I am so sorry about the illness if your sweet Cosby. I just hate to hear when someone has a sick baby. Yes it gives you a very helpless feeling to watch them decline. It all feels so hopeless when you do all you can and still you know there is nothing the vets can do.

Your baby has been with you almost all you life and I know the pain you must feel. The death of our babies just devastate and rock our world and we have to learn to live all over again. The pain is the worst I have every know. It feels like you can not live through it but the heart keeps beating. Somehow we learn to live without them beside us. Come and talk often about your precious baby.

My Snookie went through almost 11 months of illness. I knew my little girl was ready to go when she could not eat or drink, she wanted to be alone and her eyes told me it was time. Those beautiful eyes that I adored had a look in them I had never seen before. It was like her soul was speaking to mine and I just knew!