Update On New Addition, My new furbaby Cocoa Options

[sunrise]

Hello to all.
It has been a while since I have last posted on this site. Just wanted to update on my adoption of Cocoa. She has been with us for 2 months & 1 day and what began as a nightmare has turned into a blessing. When I lost my baby Duchess I was so distraut that I could not eat, sleep, talk, I just existed in a state of shock . She died from a sudden illness that took her within a week's time frame. It just knocked the wind out of me because I was not prepared for her death -- she died 3 weeks before her 5th birthday. Since I had been laid off from my job on 11/30/04 I had spent alot of time with Duchess so it was even harder on me because I lost my buddy. My husband gets up early in the morning and off to work while I stayed behind with Duchess. Not being able to find employment after being in this particular office for 17 yrs has really shaken my world since I am a creature of habit. So as the weeks turned into months I had alot of time to spend with my Duchess not knowing that my world was about to be rocked once more. Then it happened -- she was gone:(
My husband could not deal with my emotional state. It affected our relationship because I could not bring myself to talk about her for long before I would start to cry & it made me very very angry. I guess I took it out on him & some days would go by without much being said. It was about 3 weeks later that we adopted Cocoa after searching the web's various pet finder site's. At first I did not even want to deal with her & it stired up all my emotions. My husband felt that I ignored her ( and I must admit I did at first). In my mind I could not bring myself to even think about loving her because I felt that it would be a slap in the face to my precious Duchess. It took about 4 weeks before I started to interact with her. My God, she is such a good, smart, loving, adorable furbaby but I could not see through my grief. This 9 month old puppy has really helped me to get through the rough road I had been on. She has brought me so much joy that I thought I could never feel again. She is part Choc lab/ part Pit & I always felt afraid of Pit's but I was so wrong. She has the same sweet loving disposition that my precious Duchess (Black / lab shepard mix) did. So happy this puppy gave me time to get to love her as she would always come and lay next to me when I did not return her love. She has found her way into my heart which has begun to beat again because of her sweetness. I'll never forget my Duchess but am so happy to have the opportunity to share my love with my baby Cocoa.
Duchess & Cocoa's mommy

[Ann H]

I am so happy to hear that you have formed a bond with Cocoa. I know you were having such a hard time with it after you got her. Sounds like it is real love in the making to me.

Like Cheri said she is close in age to our babies. Schnitzel just turned 8 months on the 16th. I too had trouble bonding with Schnitzel until Snookie came to me in a dream letting me know it was ok. Now I am so thrilled with my little girl, I loved her but until the dream of Snookie I was afraid to show it.

Getting through the puppy stage has been a little tough but Schnitzel is coming along just fine. No none of us will ever forget our fur children but it sure is good not to be alone.
Love, Ann