Chili Bean & Snookie Cookie, Daddy and I Miss You Both Options

[Ann H]

It is just a week short of 5 months since we lost Chili Bean. I just wanted to say that when Clair and I lost our babies, well Chili Bean was our fur grandbaby but she lived with us the last 9 months of her life, and Snookie it was like losing our children. We took care of their every need and thought of them before we did ourselves. We provided love, security, medical care, and we spoiled our babies, spoiled them rotten. People used to look at Snookie and say they could tell she was spoiled just by looking at her. I used to tell them that's why I got her, to spoil her rotten and make her feel so loved.

Our precious babies slept in bed with us, went to work with us, and traveled all over the country with us on vacations. We formed a bond with them with love so intense it can never be destroyed in any way, shape, or form. We carry them in our hearts and souls until we meet them in Heaven.

They gave back so much to Clair and I in return for the love and care we gave them. Chili Bean and Snookie was never to tired to play. We would play ball and tug of war and we would even go to the park and swing with them and go down the slide holding them. They would shake hands with us and play dead and that sort of thing.

I had a basket on my 3 wheel bike and they would ride in it with me, we would take food, water, and toys with us. We would stop and lay in the grass to rest and we would pet them and they would kiss us. My husband Clair always said they were giving us a bath, when one did it the other had to do it too. We would chase them and they would turn and chase us until we all ended up on the ground hugging them.

At home they would sit in our laps as we watched tv or got on the computers. We even had a chair right next to both computers in case they wanted to sit in them. Then there was the dog beds for their comfort if they got tired of our laps or the chairs.

They always wanted snacks when we did and Clair said we would get some of the ice cream made for dogs. Oh how they all hated it and boy did we get some sad looks as they walked away for it. So from then on they had just a little of the real stuff. Snookie hated pop corn and Chili Bean loved it and would eat all she could sink her teeth in. They would sit and stare at us and we always shared everything with them.

Everytime we went out to eat they had to go with us so they could get there little to go box. My husband used to laugh and say he wondered if they wanted to be with us or if they just wanted to eat. Snookie would ride on Clair's leg and she would put her paw up near the window like Clair put his arm. Chili Bean would get beside me on the seat and lay there so happy to be with us.

This only describes a tiny bit of what it was like for us and our precious Snookie and Chili Bean. They really were our babies who we still love with all our hearts, and we miss them both so very much. Our loss is great, the memories are sweet, loving and being loved by them meant the world to us and that's why the pain is so deep.
Ann

[Ann H]

Thank you all so much for your sweet words.

Tory I know very well about the feelings to try to run and hide from things. But I think our sorrow and pain would follow us no matter where we moved or how far away we went. I know this is the worst pain there is having to give up our babies. But we cannot run and we cannot hide, the pain is in our heart and soul. Your pain is so fresh and it will take time for that pain to lessen. No, you will never forget that love even as the pain from losing him lessens you will always love and miss him. When Chili Bean passed away we bought a stone figurine that looks so much like her. We bought an insert that goes next to her picture. It says:

MY HEART BELONGS TO A CHIHUAHUA
For the smallest breed Of dog we know, The Chihuahua takes the prize-With a heart That's warm and loving, Far beyond it's tiny size.

A dog that loves to cuddle- A charmer from the start. A Chihuahua Came into my life And stole away my heart.

It is right next to Snookie's pictures and poem. I have the chihuahua figurine sitting next to Snookie's urn and I have a glass heart that are held by hands. Inside the glass heart it says I Love You. Maybe you could do those kinds of things to bring comfort to your heart.
Ann

Pamela, Thank you my precious friend for posting your picture. I love it. Only my husband, children and my dearest granddaugher Sara talks about Snookie and Chili Bean. My brothers and sister don't say anything about them anymore. I know how much that hurts.

Sweet Pamela, you have become like a sister to me and I promise as long as I shall live I will never forget about Moose. My husband said he will never forget him just from his name alone. Clair wondered where you came up with that name. I told him how you said when he was a puppy his head was much bigger than his body and that's how you named him.

Yes, life is like a book and when that last chapter is written we will be with our babies never to part again, no more pain or death ever. Running, playing, holding them, giving kisses and being kissed. You have said many times that God will restore that which is lost to us on earth. I want the last sentence to read: Just as Pamela said God did restore that which was lost to me on earth, my joy and blessings are many.
Love, Ann