Chili Bean & Snookie Cookie, Daddy and I Miss You Both Options

[Ann H]

It is just a week short of 5 months since we lost Chili Bean. I just wanted to say that when Clair and I lost our babies, well Chili Bean was our fur grandbaby but she lived with us the last 9 months of her life, and Snookie it was like losing our children. We took care of their every need and thought of them before we did ourselves. We provided love, security, medical care, and we spoiled our babies, spoiled them rotten. People used to look at Snookie and say they could tell she was spoiled just by looking at her. I used to tell them that's why I got her, to spoil her rotten and make her feel so loved.

Our precious babies slept in bed with us, went to work with us, and traveled all over the country with us on vacations. We formed a bond with them with love so intense it can never be destroyed in any way, shape, or form. We carry them in our hearts and souls until we meet them in Heaven.

They gave back so much to Clair and I in return for the love and care we gave them. Chili Bean and Snookie was never to tired to play. We would play ball and tug of war and we would even go to the park and swing with them and go down the slide holding them. They would shake hands with us and play dead and that sort of thing.

I had a basket on my 3 wheel bike and they would ride in it with me, we would take food, water, and toys with us. We would stop and lay in the grass to rest and we would pet them and they would kiss us. My husband Clair always said they were giving us a bath, when one did it the other had to do it too. We would chase them and they would turn and chase us until we all ended up on the ground hugging them.

At home they would sit in our laps as we watched tv or got on the computers. We even had a chair right next to both computers in case they wanted to sit in them. Then there was the dog beds for their comfort if they got tired of our laps or the chairs.

They always wanted snacks when we did and Clair said we would get some of the ice cream made for dogs. Oh how they all hated it and boy did we get some sad looks as they walked away for it. So from then on they had just a little of the real stuff. Snookie hated pop corn and Chili Bean loved it and would eat all she could sink her teeth in. They would sit and stare at us and we always shared everything with them.

Everytime we went out to eat they had to go with us so they could get there little to go box. My husband used to laugh and say he wondered if they wanted to be with us or if they just wanted to eat. Snookie would ride on Clair's leg and she would put her paw up near the window like Clair put his arm. Chili Bean would get beside me on the seat and lay there so happy to be with us.

This only describes a tiny bit of what it was like for us and our precious Snookie and Chili Bean. They really were our babies who we still love with all our hearts, and we miss them both so very much. Our loss is great, the memories are sweet, loving and being loved by them meant the world to us and that's why the pain is so deep.
Ann

[Paulina&Tory]

Hi Ann, Clair. We have Prunella with us now; her face is a lot like Chili Bean; she is my dog. Ollie was my wife's (Paulina) shadow except when he was napping. Ollie was noble and loving, friendly and affectionate, he loved visitors.Paulina is suffering the loss; we are also attached to our dog babies. We are both close to age 60 and our children are grown and have their own lives. We don't have any small grand children. The four of us were a family, this was our family and circle of love and dependance. It hurts and the wife has been spending a lot of time in bed. The grieving is followed by a sad heart which stops any joy. We want to sell the house and leave this area(Vancouver B.C.) to get away from this empty feeling .At this same time I would start an early retirement. I am thinking of taking Ollie with us .I have only love for Ollie but I would like to have a family of four again .Paulina objects and says we are fine just the three of us.I think it would be good to have a companion for pru, and for me. I love being coverd with my dogs, they made our lives bearable from daily drudgery. Now we feel sad and directionless,thinking what's the point in going on.We may have many years left to live, and all without Ollie What can I do to honour his life? At the end of my life, I want Ollie to be with us.
Tory