5 Days Since I Lost My Rosa, Crying Continues Options

[russ1956]

It has been 5 days since I had to put my Rosa to Sleep. She was my little 12 y/o longhaired Daschund. I actually made it more than 2 hours today without crying. My surviving dog Heidi (9 y/o shorthaired Daschund) is still grieving also. We really comfort each other.
The best therapy for me is to come to this site to share and console. It has helped so much. I thank those who have written replys to my posts. I have responded to many people as well. I know this is comforting for everyone. Saturday I will be attending a local Surviving Pet Owners Greif meeting at 9:30 A.M. I hope I don't totally break down, but If I do, oh well. I will post again tomorrow. Thanks to all.

Rusty

[Zato]

Guilt is so much a part of the grief, I have alot of guilt with my boy because I was unable to go be with him when the put him down,,,,I just could not do that it was to much for me to bear...i loved him so much but I am so weak about Good-byes,,,I just could'nt do it You just have to make it through the days in the beginning then it will not sting as much, but it takes time...coming here you will find so many people that have the same feeling of loss that you do, it really does help. Pamela

Russ,

I agree with Pamela, I think guilt is an inevitable part of the process. I was fortunate enough to be able to be with Abram during his euthanasia, and I felt extremely guilty for doing that to him. I felt (and still do sometimes) like I failed him somehow, and though my rational mind says it was necessary due to his suffering and illness, my emotional mind still has turmoil and anguish about it at times. I think this would still be the case if I had not been with him during that time. Guilt will happen no matter what you do to prepare for it, no matter if you decide to be there or not, its just a normal part of the grief process.

In the 2 days since Abram has passed on, I have found much comfort here posting about him, and his brother (who I fortunately still have) and reading about others tough times as well. Despite feeling uncomfortable about it at first, this is a great place to come and just browse all the stories and I'm sure that if you continue to visit here, the guilt, and ultimately the grief will become more bearable over time.