IPB

Welcome Guest ( Log In | Register )

 Forum Rules Site Rules and Courtesies
4 Pages V  « < 2 3 4  
Reply to this topicStart new topic
> Is It Normal To Feel So Sad & Guilty?
Petunia
post May 21 2012, 04:42 PM
Post #61





Group: Pet Lovers
Posts: 42
Joined: 27-August 11
Member No.: 7,243



Thank you. sad.gif

My other cat Petunia - (thus my user name) and Ginger, thankfully, have been very supportive. It's like they know something is wrong. They have been with me pretty much non-stop. Everything reminds me of her.

I have been sleeping on the couch, I just can't get myself to sleep in bed, where she slept next to my head every night. It just feels so strange to be there alone. I mean, if I headed to bed, even for 5 minutes to shut my eyes, she was there with me.

The worst part about it for me is that I always was taking care of her. I hate that she's gone somewhere where I can't take care of her or watch over her. She never really knew life without me either, and it hurts to think she might think she was abandoned or I left her behind.

I understand why people who only have one pet, and they lose that pet sometimes never get another one. The loss is just to great.


--------------------
Missing my little kitty Wicket 9/1/04 - 8/25/11 - Lost to CRF as a result of a birth defect
Missing my baby kitty Smokey 5/1/93 - 5/18/2012 - Lost to CRF
Go to the top of the page
 
+Quote Post
moon_beam
post May 22 2012, 12:49 PM
Post #62


Forum Moderator


Group: Moderators
Posts: 8,088
Joined: 20-July 08
From: Virginia
Member No.: 4,861



Hi, Petunia, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Right now it is very important that you do what helps you through these very difficult deep grief hours, days, weeks. I am so glad your precious Petunia and Ginger are keeping you faithful and comforting company.

Petunia, please let me try to offer you some words of reassurance about your beloved Smokey when you say "She never really knew life without me either, and it hurts to think she might think she was abandoned or I left her behind." Please know that your beloved Smokey is watching over you from her heavenly home. IN NO WAY does she think you have abandoned her - - she KNOWS this is IMPOSSIBLE. She is eternally grateful to you for all your faithful and loving attention, care, and devotion during her earthly journey, and knows how empty and devastated you are feeling right now. But she wants you to know that she is FOREVER with you in your heart and your memories. The love bond you and your beloved Smokey share is eternal, Petunia, - - nothing in heaven or on earth can ever change this. Her sweet Living Spirit continues to share your earthly journey just as she always has and always will - - she is forever a heartbeat close to you.

As you know, Petunia, this grief journey is filled with so many different emotions that take us up and down and all around, and just when we think the horror roller coaster ride has started to slow something out of nowhere takes back through the loops and twists and turns and turnarounds. It is so important that you just take one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time, and know, my friend, that we are here with you, for you, and beside you through every step of your grief adjustment journey.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Petunia and Ginger kindly, and that you will have a peaceful evening. I thank you for the blessing of your friendship, Petunia. Please know you and your precious furkids are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing,

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam


--------------------
In heaven's perfect garden there is no grief or pain, and all of God's creation join the angels' sweet refrain.

The most blessed way I have of knowing God's comforting love and grace is to look into the eyes and heart of God's creatures' sweet angelic face.
Go to the top of the page
 
+Quote Post
Petunia
post May 24 2012, 12:15 AM
Post #63





Group: Pet Lovers
Posts: 42
Joined: 27-August 11
Member No.: 7,243



It is exactly that - a roller coaster...one minute I feel better because I'm thinking about something else, and another I see something of hers or the blanket she liked to sleep on and I lose it all over again.

I have been sleeping on the couch because I just can't bear to sleep in the bedroom where she slept next to me everyday. Just not ready to do that yet.

I am glad that there is a long weekend coming up, going to work and going out of the house is hard too. So it will be nice to not have to go out for a few days.

In a way if it hadn't been for Smokey - really my first kitty, I would have never ended up saving all the kitties we have saved over the years. Four others that we kept as pets (which we still have three - now that Wicket is also gone). And at least 8 more we found, nursed to health or until they were old enough and found homes for. So I guess Smokey didn't just bless me but she blessed all the other kitties we took in ever since.

She was and always be such a wonderful baby.





--------------------
Missing my little kitty Wicket 9/1/04 - 8/25/11 - Lost to CRF as a result of a birth defect
Missing my baby kitty Smokey 5/1/93 - 5/18/2012 - Lost to CRF
Go to the top of the page
 
+Quote Post
moon_beam
post May 24 2012, 11:41 AM
Post #64


Forum Moderator


Group: Moderators
Posts: 8,088
Joined: 20-July 08
From: Virginia
Member No.: 4,861



Hi, Petunia, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Your beloved Smokey truly has had a wonderful impact on all the lives she touched during her earthly journey - - and her sweet Living Spirit will continue to be a part of everything you do, Petunia, for she is always and forever a part of you. How blessed you and your husband are to be her Forever Mom and Dad - - the only ones throughout all eternity who are blessed to have been her earthly caregivers and beneficiaries of her forever love.

I hope today is treating you, your husband, Petunia, and Ginger kindly, my friend, and that you will have a peaceful evening. I thank you for the blessing of your friendship, Petunia. Please know you, your husband, and your precious furkids are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam


--------------------
In heaven's perfect garden there is no grief or pain, and all of God's creation join the angels' sweet refrain.

The most blessed way I have of knowing God's comforting love and grace is to look into the eyes and heart of God's creatures' sweet angelic face.
Go to the top of the page
 
+Quote Post
Petunia
post May 30 2012, 10:29 PM
Post #65





Group: Pet Lovers
Posts: 42
Joined: 27-August 11
Member No.: 7,243



They called me that her ashes were at the vets office today, so I went over to get them. On my way home they called that they had forgotten to give me something - some kind of sympathy package. I think I remember from Wicket, it's like a card and a book and a paw print.

For a few minutes in the car I felt like she was with me in some way.

I love my other cats but they are not her, and our relationship is different. We understood each other in a way that my other cats just don't. It's not their fault and I love them but it's just different.

I miss her so much and I feel so alone without her.


--------------------
Missing my little kitty Wicket 9/1/04 - 8/25/11 - Lost to CRF as a result of a birth defect
Missing my baby kitty Smokey 5/1/93 - 5/18/2012 - Lost to CRF
Go to the top of the page
 
+Quote Post
moon_beam
post May 31 2012, 02:09 PM
Post #66


Forum Moderator


Group: Moderators
Posts: 8,088
Joined: 20-July 08
From: Virginia
Member No.: 4,861



Hi, Petunia, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. As you are all too familiar when we get our beloved companion's ashes back it is a two sided coin: on the one side it can be very comforting to have them back home where they belong, while on the other side it is yet another blantant "reality check" that they are not with us in the physical form we so long to hold in our arms. I am so sorry that you will have to go back to pick up the sympathy package the vet prepared for you. I do know how difficult it is to go back to the vet's office after the physical loss of a beloved companion, even when it is for a routine check up for another furchild.

It will take time for you and your precious Petunia and Ginger to adjust to the "new normal" in your family unit. It is normal to feel alone when your heart is in deep grief, even though you are surrounded by other companions who love you. Your beloved Smokey and Wicket are keeping a loving vigil over you, Petunia. And please know we are here for you through every step of your grief adjustment journey.

I hope today is treating you, your husband, Petunia, and Ginger kindly, my friend, and that you will have a peaceful evening. I thank you for the blessing of your friendship, Petunia. Please know you, your husband, and your precious furkids are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing, and to sharing your treasured memories of your beloved Smokey and Wicket.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam


--------------------
In heaven's perfect garden there is no grief or pain, and all of God's creation join the angels' sweet refrain.

The most blessed way I have of knowing God's comforting love and grace is to look into the eyes and heart of God's creatures' sweet angelic face.
Go to the top of the page
 
+Quote Post
DannysMom
post May 31 2012, 06:46 PM
Post #67





Group: Pet Lovers
Posts: 1,113
Joined: 3-February 12
Member No.: 7,464



QUOTE (Petunia @ May 30 2012, 11:29 PM) *
They called me that her ashes were at the vets office today, so I went over to get them. On my way home they called that they had forgotten to give me something - some kind of sympathy package. I think I remember from Wicket, it's like a card and a book and a paw print.

For a few minutes in the car I felt like she was with me in some way.

I love my other cats but they are not her, and our relationship is different. We understood each other in a way that my other cats just don't. It's not their fault and I love them but it's just different.

I miss her so much and I feel so alone without her.


Petunia, I know what you mean about the special relationship you had with Smokey. That's how it was between me and Tina. My sweet Tina was very attached to me. She greeted me by the door and would wait for me sitting in the window. She would comfort me when I was upset and she slept with me every night. I too felt so alone without Tina, because we had been so close. My heart goes out to you, and I hope that you will find some comfort in treasured memories of Smokey.

Hugs,
DannysMom


--------------------
Danny: March 4, 2001 - December 28, 2011
Tina: October 27, 1997 - April 28, 2012


To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die.
Go to the top of the page
 
+Quote Post

4 Pages V  « < 2 3 4
Reply to this topicStart new topic

 



Lo-Fi Version Time is now: 23rd July 2025 - 02:29 PM