Wow - Fate's eyes are amazing.

I have two blue eyed dogs and I've never seen a cat with just one blue eye before. So special.

I really understand about having that "special one". I've known many cats and had lost a couple, but never had I hurt so much until I lost Zita, then Ziggy. People think of cats as independent minded and somewhat detached from humans, and it's true many cats are like that. But Zita was my "Buddha kitty" - she just exuded love. Then when she went missing I found Ziggy. She had very similar body language and expressions to Zita and since orange tabby females are not so common I think Zita and Ziggy were related in some way. Ziggy was so appreciative - she had the biggest funniest purr of any cat I have ever known and she was so happy. I don't know what her history was, she was a 5 yr old cat and had been dropped off at the SPCA with her daughter who was adopted before her. I just know she was ultra-special. Then she was shot August 23rd and died 5 days later because the vet didn't do the correct exploratory surgery.

I am comforted to know that Fate was also a special soul, and that maybe there are other special souls or "healing kitties" like my Zita and Ziggy. I couldn't get another cat now, but perhaps someday, I really don't know. It's funny because I've had two offers of cats - one that didn't get along with the other cats (like I need that, with my 5 dogs and gentle tabby Zeus), and by someone who has kittens. There is just no way I could adopt just any old "cat". I don't mean to sound like a snob - of course all creatures are special in their own ways - but once you've had a really special cat, it would be just sheer disappointment for me to get a "regular" cat if you get what I mean.

Your Fate also looks similar to my Missy cat who passed several years ago except for her blue eye.

I hope you will have many more signs from Fate to let you know he is still there with you when you need him.

Jan.

Chuck I hope as the days pass you and your wife are feeling better. At this time the only product I have in my pantry that contributes to cancer research is Zukes. You can find info on it at www.zukes.com Ava

Hi Chuck, I"m so sorry for your loss. Fate (beautiful name) is such a gorgeous angel. I truely know your pain. How long will it take is only up to us. Having lost 2 cats yrs ago I know it does lessen, I do know so much about that special one. I did not have my Arthur long enough to compair him with my "special one" I had years ago, but he was the one that could have easily compaired to it. It is so truely hard and don't be ashamed of your tears. My Dave being a grown man cried like a baby. It's good to do that. I wish there was something I could say to ease your hurt, but I am still hurting myself..They certainly do teach us how to love like never thought we could..Hugs to you and your wife..Ann

Dottie: I hardly have words to express my thanks for the time you spent on these pictures. They are so special to me. THANK YOU!!!!!


Chuck

Ava, thank you for the suggestion of Zukes, I will look for them. It does seem that cancer seems to kill a lot animals, I know that I have lost others besides Fate to it.

Jan and Ann: Thank you for sharing. It is really hard to describe to others about that "special one". I have loved all the cats and dogs I've had through my life, but there was just some sort of intense connection between me and Fate that is hard to describe. I know you two understand it though, having experienced it with your little guys. I certainly hope that your pain can lessen as time goes on. I know it will help us all on the Forum to know that we have really been blessed to experience the kind of love that brings us here. It is really hard to accept it right now, but I know eventually we will understand that it is better to have loved that special one and had them pass on ahead of us to the Rainbow Bridge than to have never shared their love.

Thanks again for everyone who has shared their comforting thoughts and my heart and comfort goes out to all of you who are still feeling the pain of your loss.

Chuck

Dear Chuck,

I wanted to write to tell you how sorry I am to hear of Fate's passing. Here you were comforting me earlier (at least I think this is the same Chuck) and I find that you and your wife have just suffered your own loss. Thank you so much for caring to write to me.

It's been 3 months and I still wake up with an upset stomach and feelings of anxiety over the loss of my dog. But I think part of it is my own fault...going back through files...consulting with vets...wanting, trying to find the truth (and of course I think the blame seems to be falling on me). I wouldn't wish this experience or my current "condition" on my worst enemy (not that I should be wishing anything bad on anyone anyway!...)

Wishing you and your family peace...

Chuck, you're more than welcome. I only wish there was more that I could do. Please know that you, your dear wife and your precious fur baby remain in my thoughts and prayers and I wing many Comforting Hugs and Angels to soothe and guide you through this most difficult time.

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Dottie: Thank you once again and thanks for all the beautiful pictures you make for those who come to the forum suffering. It really does mean a lot!

Hope2heal: I know it must be awful but I hope you can, over time, find a way to let go of the guilt you are feeling. Your powerful love for your little friend is obvious for all to see and I am sure you did the absolute best you could for her. And I know that wherever she is she has already forgiven you (if indeed there was anything to forgive) and wants you to live positively in her memory.

Chuck

Chuck,

I am so sorry for your loss, I know how difficult it can be when you lose a fur kid so suddenly. My little Fleetwood kitty died while I was on vacation in February and it still seems like yesterday. Just know Fate is forever alive and purring in your heart. The pictures of Fate are wonderful, what a beautiful kitty!

Hang in there and know we are all here to listen.

Mark
Missing Fleetwood