I just wanted to acknowledge that it was 1 week ago at 9:25 pm tonight that TJ died in my arms. I always knew somehow that he would pass away when I was with him. He and I were so in-sync it was unbelievable. I'm glad his death was peaceful~or at least it seemed to be. I just hope that he wasn't scared when the time came to go. I hope he is at peace with all my other pets that have passed. I like to think of all of them together getting re-acquainted and relaxing under a huge shade tree with a gentle breeze blowing. I feel TJ's presence around me alot of the time. I have gotten several signs that make me believe he is ok. I should feel better but all I want is to have him back and be able to hold him.

Lisa...NOAH'S ARK

Hi Lisa,
I know just how you feel. These first weeks (and months) are so hard. Even though I have found Peace in my decision to put Cosmo down, I still miss holding him. I know that all of our babies are in a wonderful place of contentment, and time does not exist for them anymore, but it doesn't change the fact that we miss them being here with us. Time passes so slowly for us when we are grieving. I will always miss having my baby by my side, and I look forward to the day we are reunited. Then I will know the Peace that Cosmo, and my other babies, have now. Sometimes, I long for that day, but I must have unfinished business on this Earth, because for now, I remain.
I hope you are finding some comfort from your husband now, but if not, I'm happy yo see you are reaching out here.
I'm thinking of you and TJ, on his first week mark. I know how much you miss him.
Take care.
Love,
Michelle

Its been a little over 2 weeks now since Odin died. Sometimes I can still here him, they way he would "trill" for attention. I have been doing the heartbreaking job of finding an urn for him to place his remains. I just sit at my computer and cry because I want him back sooo badly and I know it cannot be. I worry sometimes that I will forget him. I have taken to carrying his ashes with me sometimes when i'm home. Im afraid if my husband see's he'll think im nuts, but it helps me feel close to him. Sometimes memories and photos aren't enough....but know that TJ loves you and is thinking of you if you can still feel him. I know Odin comes back to me, usually when I feel my worst, and I love him all the more for it.

Take Care Lisa...
Cynthia

Michelle and Cynthia...I know both of you are probably going to think that I'm nuts...but I swear to God...I truly believe that TJ is still all around me. Last night i found some pictures of TJ that were downloaded onto the computer. My husband was trying to print a picture so we could buy a nice frame and put TJ'S picture in it. Today, my son had surgery, and in the gift shop was a frame with a picture of a cat on it and it said at the top "In Loving Memory." The frame also has four ceramic fish on it...one fish says"Beloved Pet",next says "Cuddly Companion," "Loving Heart," and "Purrfect Friend." There was also a cat beanie baby that is very similar in color to TJ. When I looked on the tag to see what it's name was...no it wasn't TJ...that would be really spooky...but the name was Gypsy...that is the name of my french lop bunny! Now, I have been in many hospital gift shops and have never seen a frame for a pet that has passed away. Maybe it's coincidence (sp) but it was the only frame of its kind in the shop. Once again I was in deep thought and feeling sad about TJ when I spotted it out of the blue! I have been getting many signs and it has been helping to ease my pain. Needless to say, I bought both the frame and the beanie baby.
I have been thinking of both of you and keeping you in my prayers...Cynthia, I'm sorry...I didn't realize Odin's passing was so recent. I probably read it but so many people post on this site that I sometimes find it hard to keep track. I would like to be able to reply to everyone on this board but I get overwhelmed and feel like a broken record repeating myself and sometimes the sadness is too much to bare. I hope everyone knows how deeply saddened I am for everyone who is going through this terrible grief. This is a very sympathetic board and I am glad I found it.

Thinking of all of you,
Lisa...NOAH'S ARK

Cynthia..I'm sorry you are dealing with trying to find an urn for Odin. As if you haven't already been through enough. This site www.carealotpets.com do sell some urns. Maybe you cn check that out if you haven't found one.

Hugs,
Lisa...NOAH'S ARK