I thought I would feel better by now. I have my good days and my bad days. Today I am missing him more than ever. He was such a good friend and a smart dog. I miss the way he would bring me things off the table . He would take money out of my bag and walk into the room with it. Just to see what we would say. I know that he was created to make people laugh. It has been almost two weeks. It seems like an eternity. My students all miss him too. I often tell stories to them of the things he used to do. We are so heart broken that we have put our house up fpr sale. I can't stand to look across the road and see the place were he was hit. If I only had the power to bring him back. I have his ashes sitting next to his picture. I can't even think about getting rid of them. I still need him around. Here is to you BUSTER. I miss you and I look forward to seeing you again. You will be always in our hearts. We love you.
Buster's Mom and Dad

Ah, I am so sorry. Buster was so very well loved! It takes time. Two weeks is just a very short time. You'll have ups and downs, but one day you will begin to feel better. That sounds so cute -- him taking money out of your purse and showing you! I am glad you are able to talk about Buster and remember all the good times and the love you shared. It'll be 11 months Saturday since my Hannah has been gone, and I still think of her all the time and miss her so very much. I still cry a lot too. So be patient with yourself.
Marcia

I'm so sorry about Buster. He sounds like such a sweet and smart little guy.
As Marcia said, 2 weeks is a very short time. I'm coming up on Shiloh's 6 month anniversary and I still miss her very much, and I still cry over her. Give yourself time to heal.

You're in my thoughts.
Kathleen

I know how hard it is at 2 weeks it seems that it becomes even more painful at that time. At 2 weeks I was just starting to admit that my Snookie was not coming back. That she was gone from this earth for good, until then I was somewhat numb. But then the pain hit me hard and then eased up a little after that. Marcia and Kathleen are right it is a short time but I know it seems so long without your baby. I feel the same way.

I guess I would not want to stay in my home either if I had to look across the street and see it in my mind all the time too. It must be a hard thing to live there and look out the window on top of the grief you feel. It could not be an easy thing to replay it in your mind. I am thinking up you and your Buster.
Hugs, Ann

I love your pic of Buster. I also moved from my home, it was a dead end street. The busy street was about 2 blks down, that is where my Moose was hit by the car. I cant begin to tell you the utter agony I felt, the guilt because I got distracted and I had always been so protective of him for fear of him getting hit by a car,,,but just that one moment changed my whole life and I went reeling......I not only left the house, I left the town, I was gone for a couple of weeks it did me good to get away and I feel better for it and the.. not having to drive by the spot everytime I left the house.
It is a very drastic move so be sure it is the right decision. My house was a rental, so the decision to leave there was no big deal. The decision to leave the town was one made in grief so I came back I just could'nt see it at the time. But I can really understand why you would want to leave there. I wanted to run....I could'nt leave fast enough, but I learned it doesnt matter where I go, the pain goes with me. I'm really sorry about Buster. Pamela

Dear Buster's Mom & Dad,

There really is nothing I can say, unfortunately, to ease the pain. But, I can tell you that it will be easier to deal with in time. It's been six weeks since I lost my Inky baby and yes, it still hurts, but no where near as badly as it had. His ashes arrived about a week or so after he died and it made me feel much better. He has a beautiful oak urn (which is really kind of like a large, deep jewelry box) and he has all his favorite little toys in there with him. It gives me pleasure to be able to open that box and talk to him, which my husband and I do often. His ashes arriving was a bit like him coming home. That's when my pain began to subside, but it's different for each of us.

You will feel better. Although it doesn't seem that way now, it WILL happen. There's no way any of us will ever completely get past our losses, especially those of you that lost your babies to a tragic accident... my heart aches for you all to have to have that visual pain. Just know that you will eventually get through this.

And... Buster had a face you just wanted to grab and smooch!

My love to you all!!!

Pat

I look for Sammy quite often too. It is a harsh reality everytime I look at his grave and realize he's gone. I have gotten through the worst of the crying (for now) though I will still cry at the drop of a hat. I realized I was puttting alot of strain on myself and the baby, and so I have tried to hold some of the guilt and grief at bay. I now this isn't healthy but neither is not eating or sleeping when you're pregnant. I will grieve all my life for Sammy...this I know...so I guess I shouldn't be in any hurry to get it all out...that will never happen.

I understand about wanting to get away from your house. One of the only blessings I have from this is that my bro-in-law found poor Sammy and carried him to me. I'm not sure exactly where he died. If I did I probably couldn't bear it. It hurts just driving down the street or backing out of the driveway.

I hope your family is doing well, or at least better. You are all in my thoughts.

I am so sorry for the loss of your dog Buster. I lost Lucy almost 6 weeks ago and I miss her so much. It is still really hard for me to be outside in the back or front yard now that she is gone. She was ALWAYS outside with us, and it is a painful reminder that she is gone. I am so sorry that you are suffering so much. It is like losing a member of the family. Please be gentle with yourself during this time. Grieving is an incredibly harrowing process. It changes the person we once were forever. So life won't probably ever be the same again, but it will just move on in a different way. Buster certainly wouldn't want you to suffer so much at his expense. It is so hard, I know. Hang in there and come here when you need the comfort. Sometimes I don't write, but rather just read the posts. Then, when I do end up writing, I somehow feel better. It is a time that I am honoring Lucy's memory, and reflecting on the special presence she was in my life. Buster's memory will also live on through you...

Caroline

Buster's Mom and Dad,

Two weeks is a very short time for sure. I lost my Snoops 1 1/2 years ago and I still cry but not nearly as much as I did before. I remember those weeks right after and I thought the pain would never go away but it does. My heart goes out to you and I will keep you in my thoughts.

Hugs,
Beth