I helped Esabella come into this world eight years ago, a beautiful, blonde pom who became the love of my life. Her grandmother Coco who is now 15 years old, Esabella and myself were a family. For the past ten years we were a threesome as I traveled as a registered nurse.
Holiday plans were made to visit my family in the Carolina's and we left Florida last Monday. To beat the rainy weather, we decided to go to Savannah, Georgia on our journery. Tuesday morning as usual with the feeding and walking, the girls were happy and excited. We went to the historical area and walking in a park, Esabella went into respiratory arrest. Rapidly, we found an animal hospital. Upon arriving, a satff member took Esabella out of my arms and back to the doctor's. I sat with a scared but, positive feeling......she would be ok now. They started an IV and administered oxygen. The doctor came to talk with me wanting to keep her under observation and suggested we go have lunch. Remaining positive in thoughts, we left for a breif period of time. As we were returning to the hospital, the doctor called me on my cell phone with a so-so report on Esabella. They wanted to x-ray and I said, do anything you need to do. Upon returning to the hospital, the doctor then allowed me to come into the room to be with Esabella and bring Coco and my friend. How thoughtful and kind this doctor was. Walking into the room, started my heart with palpitations and realization that Esabella was in severe trouble as she was intubated and on a respirator. Lord, please help her I prayed. She became more excited when she saw me. I could see the fear in her eyes and I felt her crying out to me for help. I watched as they worked so deligently with great effort and skill to care and comfort my love.
The x-rays ................ I still see them in my mind.............displayed, the fears..........and the facts I was worned of years ago concerning Esabella'a trachea. Her trachea was so narrowed, her heart was inlarged and she had to much fluid on her lungs as she earnestly strived with great effort to breath in order to live. She loved me so much, my little shadow and I truly know in her heart she felt that she would always be with me.
I found myself on my knee's in prayer and without control of my emotions. The passing hours were endless as I watched this wonderful doctor execute every known medical skill and knowledge she could use to save Esabella. The doctor even called in another doctor for more expert opinions. She then called Esabella's doctor back in Florida. I then spoke with Jeff and he so gently reassurred me that there are no further medical, means available to save Esabella's life.
I received my options and prayed as our moments together in time were rapidly fadeing.
Esabella left me and this world on her own as I held her in my arms at 7 pm, Tueday, November 23, 2004.
Somehow, I continued the journey to spend the holiday with my family and that was a difficult, painful experience, as well. Esabella was loved by everyone.
I returned to Savannah, Georgia last Monday to pick up Esabella's little body.
Somehow, I feel a sense of peace because Esabella is now home and burried at a beautiful grave site. Though Esabella is alive in my heart ........always, We have a special place to be near her for comfort.
There are reasons for experiences we cross over............I work daily on an understanding of that thought. At the same time, I give thanks to God for the blessings of Esabella, Coco and the awesome doctor's whose loving efforts are endless.
It is amazing, how I felt that I could never live without Esabella but......... I do. For, she lives forever and in time and faith..........we will be together.