I think about you everyday more than 100x. Words can't describe how empty I still feel almost 6 months later. This has been the hardest year of my life yet.. Without you, the one who always made me smile no matter what. The one who would howl and love me unconditionally. The best dog in the world. The funniest most handsome dog.. Life without you will always be incomplete. I have tried to move on and be happy without you. But i just cant. I love you way too much to ever let go.. I cant feel happiness like I use to.. Any time im up and happy, I think of you and immediately feel guilt. I should have just locked that door so you couldnt have pushed through. I shouldnt even have brought you to my shop. Im supposed to keep you safe .. Because you were a child to me. And now there is nothing I can do to bring you back & all I ever feel is pain that Im the one that caused you to get hit by that car.. You and Luna ran 3 blocks & that was all it took for you to be gone in an instant. Only 2 years old & so full of life. You were about to have a huge yard and pool .. I was about to give you everything you could of wanted but you left us here alone.. me & Luna.. I know you probably saved her by you getting hit .. But I really wished this was a nightmare. Bc the past 6 months have felt like one. & I will always feel the blame.. Its tough when you have two options, thinking of the good times that were so good it hurts that we cant have more or the images of the way I last seen you. In the vet on a stretcher cold & dead
.. Or in the back of my suv, lifeless while i brought you to the vet. I knew you werent even there the moment i found u in the road surrounded by 3 strangers. No matter how hard I try to forgive myself, I cant because I didnt keep you safe. It was such a beautiful morning and you just wanted to run free... It wasnt your fault, it was mine. Im so sorry.. I just wish you could come back to me... I always see you in my dreams .. & I miss you even more as the days move on.