QUOTE (moon_beam @ Jan 16 2016, 10:07 AM)
Hi, Luna's Mom, please permit me to add my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Luna. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company.
As our forum friends Kathy and Trulie have already so comfortingly shared with you, it is obvious you and your husband did everything in your power to give your beloved Luna a happy and healthy earthly journey. Just because a treatment "can be" offered does not necessarily mean it is in the best interest of each individual patient to take / receive it. Our companions are very proud spirits - - they take great pride in not soiling their environment. Your beloved Luna could not control the effects of the diuretic, so it is perfectly understandable that you decided not to continue the medication. I hope in time you will be able to find a peace in your heart that your beloved Luna knows beyond all shadow of a doubt that you love her - - and this love transcends the physical laws of time and space. Your beloved Luna is now restored to her former youthfulness in the company of the angels - - and she is forever blessed to have you for her Forever Mom.
This grief journey is one of the most painful experiences we will know on this side of eternity. It is filled with many different emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time which is why it is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride. Unfortunately there is no easy way to navigate this grief journey. There are no fast forward or delete buttons we can press that can speed up the process or make it automatically disappear. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time sometimes one moment at a time for you are now on a journey that is filled with all the first withouts and the memories that can be all too painful right now that include this time yesterday, last week, last month, last year to endure. But I promise you one day - - very likely when you least expect it - - you will find yourself thinking of your beloved Luna and you will find yourself smiling - - truly smiling - - and your heart will find comfort once again in all the wonderful memories you and your beloved Luna share.
I know all too well from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep grief there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the searing pain of sorrow. Still I hope the words I share with you will offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey.
Thank you so much for honoring us in sharing your beloved Luna with us. Perhaps sometime you would like to share a picture of her with us - - but only when / if you want to. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Luna's Mom, and please let us know how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Dear Moon Beam
Thanks so much for your kind words of healing and love.
On the day Luna passed, I felt like 'something' had taken away a piece of my heart in a rough way. It was me against the laws of nature, how could a sweet little fury angel, die like that? Why couldn't I do anything, or act sooner to prevent this or, at least make things easier for her? How could she leave like that, when I still needed to share many moments with her?. Sadly, moments I thought I'd share later, but I couldn't because of work and a full schedule ... How wrong I was. Luna taught me to share and say I love you, today!
Today, I thank God for His compassion and love through people like you, Kathy and Trulie and many others, and I thank Luna for her love, and forgiveness.
I've understood, that God has a time for everyone on this earth, and that last wednesday, was Luna's day for going to heaven to rest, and not expierence any more discomfort, no more vet visits, no more difficulty breathing, no more 'accidents', that like you said, hurt her dignity.
I feel her love and forgiveness all around me every day... But sometimes, I also feel that I am drawning in sadness and sorrow.
I believe, that is not the way Luna would have wanted me to feel, as you wrote, she and I share a beautiful bond of love, and I will not let it be stained by harsh thoughts of guilt, or regret.
I hope the day arrives, like you wrote, when I will feel strong again. Right now I feel scared to love another puppy, what if something like this happens again? I think time will heal, and Luna's love will keep on talking to my heart. I pray for the day I can love again another puppy.
Thanks so much Moon Beam. Your words have meant so much to me, your support and encouragement, have lifted me up from the place of darkness and sadness where I have been during these past days.
God bless you, your kind and loving heart, and your work to help many people overcome such a terrible loss.
I hope to hear from you again,
Luna's mom