In April, rescued Panya from someone on Craigslist who could no longer keep her because she was moving. If someone didn't want her, she was just going to release her into the wild.

I adopted her and her cage mate Mocha. Panya became a free range rat. She did not live in the confines of a cage and wandered the apartment freely. For the most part she would stay out of trouble and not destroy things, except the random article of clothing I carelessly left on the floor.

It did not take to long for her to bond to me and she was never far away. She loved to cuddle and would sit on your shoulder while watching TV and be content for hours. When she wanted your attention, she would climb up your leg and make her way up to your shoulder where she'd sit and want to be petted. She always knew when it was time for dinner and would attempt to steal your food if you let her. When it was time for sleep, she'd climb up onto the bed and rest on the pillow if she wasn't already there.

She passed away December 6th from a long battle of heart disease. It has been a rough 10 days and sometimes I still forget she is not here. I'll wake up at night thinking she is still laying on my pillow, or I will think I feel her snuggling up against me.

I loved that rat so much. Funny how such a small creature can leave such a large imprint on our hearts. I'll always miss her.

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Hi, Rakuun, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Panya. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company.

Rakuun, this grief journey is filled with many different emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time - - it is a journey that is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride. Please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling and experiencing is very normal deep grief - - very painful both emotionally and physically, yes - - still very normal. It is also very normal for us to feel and even hear our beloved companions after they have transitioned home to the angels. I assure you, Rakuun, this is your beloved Panya's way of letting you know that her sweet Living Spirit is forever with you as you continue with your earthly journey. The love bond you and your beloved Panya share is eternal - - it is not dependent upon the physical laws of time and space. So I hope you will find comfort in the times when you do feel your beloved Panya's sweet Living Spirit close to you.

Rakuun, I know there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the seering pain of sorrow that is in your heart right now. I can only hope the words I share with you will offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey.

Thank you so much for sharing your beloved Panya with us, Rakuun. She is a sweet little girl, and you are now blessed with the privilege of being the sole heir of her eternal love. Please know you and your precious Mocha are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Sadly Mocha too has passed, although I was not as closely bonded to her as Panya. She died last month due to a pituitary tumor.

This picture is the night before she passed. The tumor had caused her to be very weak, and she laid there for hours.

Thank you for the kind words.


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Hi, Rakuun, please permit to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Mocha. Losing two companions so close together intensifies the grief. Each of our companions has their own special uniquie place in our hearts because our individual relationships with each of our companions during their earthly journey are uniquely special. I hope it brings some measure of comfort to you to know that your beloved Panya and Mocha are now restored to their former youthfulness in the company of the angels, and both of their sweet Living Spirits are continuing to keep you company as you continue your earthly journey.

Rakuun, thank you so much for sharing both your beloved Panya and Mocha with us. It is important that you know you are not alone in your grief adjustment journey. Each of us here do understand the deep sorrow you are feeling, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Rakuun, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

This has not been a very good month for me. Last night another one of my older male rats named Bat had a stroke. He became paralyzed and couldn't move much. He died peacefully in my arms around 4:30 this morning. I'll miss him and his little prancing that he always did when he wanted a treat.

Hi, Rakuun, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Bat. Multiple losses in a short period of time can be very traumatic and intensify the grief. It is very special that his transition home to the angels was done wrapped in your loving arms as he ascended to his heavenly home reunited now with your beloved Panya and Mocha. I know how a heart filled with grief can feel like it is literally being ripped apart when sorrow continues to fill it up. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Rakuun, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Here is a picture of Bat.

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Hi, Rakuun, thank you so much for sharing a picture of your beloved Bat with us. He is so cute. I know he brought much joy to you during his earthly journey. You now have the blessing of being the heir to his eternal love and the many treasured memories you share together.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Rakuun, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Panya's, Mocha's, and Bat's sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam