MJ

OH Muppie's mom

My heart is crying for you and the loss of your wonderful Muppie. Animal control has to be the worst job in the world. I cannot imagine what it takes to do that. Just goes to show that this world is not our home.

And it is not Muppie's home either. You and Muppie have been blessed enough to have found the one and only being who shares a part of the other's soul. That'ss what people mean (even though they don't know it) when they say soul-mates. Muppie searched the whole universe for the one-and-only with the missing puzzle piece of his soul. Then this amazing dog FOUND her - you! And the love at first sight told both of you that you'd finally found each other.

Muppie's mom, what happened to Muppie was truly terrible. Treeible for her and even more terrible for you. You had heart enough to love and care for a beautiful dog who often gets rejected just because of the way they look, just because of the name of their breed. But your brave and lovng heart opened to Muppie and gave her joy every day of her life on earth. Tragically it was cut short by a legal system that has absolutely NO value for people.

Muppie's mom, some thought and images are just too haunting to keep in our minds. We don't know what goes through a loved animal's mind so we fill our thoughts with what WE would have been thinking and feeling. I agonized over leaving my Gretta (a rescued dog minutes away from the "shot" in Animal Control) at a University Vet hospital on her last night on earth because I was too afraid to bring her home. Over and over I begged her to forgive me. A wonderful friend here on lightning wrote a couple of verses that reallly helped me. Maybe they will comfort you a little

Oh, mommie in the end as always
Nothing that you did was wrong
No matter where I was I felt it
Your love for me was just that strong

Oh mommie, mommie please don't worry
For there is nothing to forgive
A life of peace and warmth and gladness
Is what I want for you to live.

Muppie's mommie, Muppie is NOT gone. You just can't see her or hear her or cuddle with her - and that is H#^&*$O^ on earth. But true love, soul-mate love, never diminishes or goes away. It only grows. It lasts forever. It was there at the beginning of time and it will be there at the end fo time - ever just the same. My vet, the ultimate man of science, told me when he heard about Gretta, "She's in a safe place now." And so is Muppie. She's in the Perfect World - a world that she (and you) came from and where you will join her someday. When you pass through the Golden Gate all pain, hurt, fear, sickness, anger, - everything bad - is washed away in the light. Muppie is up there with Gretta and Trevor and all the other animals who have ever lived on this earth. She's still on her job, though - watching you, guiding your steps, and most important, loving you and being loved by you. Never forget this.

Back on this Screwed up earth, though, you're going througgh the worst pain there is - separation from the one being who loves you unconditionally. The one being who can drive away all fear and pain in your soul and bring out all the love. This experiences has been called the roller coaster ride of horrors - and that doesn't even begin to describe it. Your heart is in the shock-and-awe period - being shattered every moment, shot right through with pain, as BObbie here says, bleeding to death from the heart. Your only "job" during this period is to live - I mean it - just keep breathing. Rest and eat as you can , but keep on exhaling after you inhale. Someday this period will pass - the body can't sustain being in a dire emergency state. Then you will begin the mountain of concrete on the heart period. I don't know how long this period lasts. I'm still in it at 14 months. About 25% of the pain has gone, but I think I'll be at this stage until Gretta and I are reunited. And that's OK. I can stand it.

Muppie's mom - You have come to exactly the right place. Everyone here knows exactly what you're going through. Oh, the details may be different but the heartache is the same. And we love and support each other. Truly, this LS site is THE best support site of any kind on the web. We're a band of brother and sisters joined together by pain, yes, but even more by the honor of having loved and been loved by the most special beings on earth. Alone we are weak but together we hold each other up and become strong. Here's some strength for you to use today, Muppie's mommie.

Gretta has taken Muppie in up in the Perfect World and they are backing in the warm sun bragging about their wonderful mom's.

Please be gentle with yourself and every time that awful movie starts to play in your mind, replace it with images of where Muppie is now and how she is waiting for you to join her, never to be separated again.

For now ...

Gretta (and Rufus)'s mom

Dear, dear Muppie's Mommy,

I am so incredibly sorry for the horrible loss of your beloved and wonderful Muppie. As hard as the losses of my boys over the years have been, I cannot imagine the horror and helplessness that you have gone through. And it sounds as if you went through this alone. Please accept my deepest sympathy

I would, first, like to tell you that I am here for you 24/7, to listen to your words, to cry with you, to hear all about Muppie so that we can both remember and rejoice in her LIFE. and to hold you up when everything is just too much for you. And I am not the only one. You have found an amazing support system in Lightning-Strike. As time passes, more and more compassionate folks will write to you and help you in many, many ways.

What you are going through, right now, is the worst pain you will ever experience in your life. The pain is not only mental (e.g. "What if I had only..?"), but physical as well. Our bodies are tuned to each other, especially when we have companions who shower us with unconditional love all the time. So when the separation happens, it's exactly like a knife cutting us apart. And I feel just awful that yours had to be unnecessary and far away from each other. But the mental and/or spirit pain is what takes so long. I know, when I put my Trevor to sleep last July, that my heart immediately started shredding into a million pieces and hasn't really stopped yet (slowed down a bit, maybe) and my soul has been crushed since the moment Trevor's heart stopped. At this point I don't think there is a whole lot you can "do" about the pain, except continue to live and live through it. Most of us humans do have enough strength to accomplish that enormous feat, whether we like it or not. And so will you. And for now, that is all you have to do. Go through your days as best you can, but if you have the opportunity to grieve whenever you need to, DO IT! I cried, I sobbed, I screamed, I lay on the floor clutching on old blank of Trevor's trying to figure out what was going on, what had happend and why. It's been almost 10 months (tomorrow) and I still am far from the answers.

What I DO know, though, and firmly believe this with all my heart and soul is that Trevor (and Gretta and so many more wonderful creatures) has immediately befriended Muppie, the moment she crossed the Rainbow Bridge into that Heavely Land we all strive to end up at. Muppie had no fear, pain, sorrow, hunger, thirst, fatigue or isolation any more. Oh yes, she misses you and hopes that your sadness will ease as quickly as possible and she so wants you to know that SHE IS 100% ALRIGHT. And, by now, every dog, cat, bird, bunny, ferret, lizard, giraffe, mouse, etc. knows everything about you! Muppie has been bragging about you and your love for her since the moment she arrived. And you can bet that all the animals are cheering, clapping and are so happy that Muppie had YOU as her mom, frist on earth and, one day, together in this amazing Land. This is one belief I hold onto every single day, knowing that, one day, Trevor, all his brothers and I will be reuinited for eternity! Not only that, but I will get to actually meet Muppie and Gretta, and Hermy and Tucker and Gino and all those friends that Trevor has made. And, one day, perhaps even you and I will meet!

Muppies Mommy, again, I am so sorry and my heart just breaks for you and your sorrow. Please remember YOU ARE NEVER ALONE on this horrible journey. WE are all with you. Simply put one foot in front of the other (so you don't fall down) and breathe. The other things will happen as needed, but you need do no more for now. Eventually, and only when YOU are ready, I would love to hear more about Muppie. She sounds fantastic! And, finally, do not worry that Muppie will be forgotten. NOPE, doesn't happen. Do whatever helps you along, to keep in touch with her. I talk to Trevor, sing to him, write him a love note every day on this site, go visit his grave, talk about him incessantly and am making a collage of his pictures. Whatever you have, rejoice in. Whatever you don't (e.g. her ashes) is only physical. Remember, Muppie's Spirit is right next to your heart, beat for beat, together with you forever.

With love and sympathy,
Bobbie (Trevor's mom)

WHY DOES IT HURT SO BAD SO VERY BAD.MY HEART IS BLEEDING I WANT TO DIE

Dear Muppie's Mommy,

I'm grateful that you are still here today, even though the pain has not lessened one little bit.

I believe that the reason the pain is so excrutiating and awful is a direct reflection on how much YOU and MUPPIE loved each other. True. If you really didn't care that much for Muppie, her loss would be sad, but you would get over it much more quickly. Oh it might hurt some, but not like it is hurting you this very minute. You adored Muppie and vice versa and THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE!! That is why the pain is so awfully, awfully bad and that you want to, again, be physically with her. However, that is not going to happen.

What IS going to happen is that, one day when the time is right, your SPIRIT will rejoin Muppie's SPIRIT in that wonderful place I choose to call Heaven. Spiritual joining and reunions are much more pwerful (in other words better and happier) than we can ever imagine while stuck on this earth. Muppie's Spirit is already and has been with you since the moment she passed and will never, ever leave you. I believe that with all my heart and that is why I talk to my Trevor and all his brothers who passed before him. When I am at the cemetery, I talk to them out loud and really don't care if anyone hears me. When I am elsewhere (other than home) my thoughts travel directly to my boys. And my first boy (as an adult) passed away over 25 years ago. Do you think I've forgotten him? Nope. So, my friend, be in touch with Muppie in ways that make you feel most comfortable: talk, cry, whisper, sing, remember, smile, touch what was hers (when you can). Like leejaye, I left water in Trevor's bowl (changing it every day) for over 6 months! It just made me feel closer to him to continue a ritual I had done every day of his little life.

You are so sad and scared, Samantha. But you really have no reason to feel guilty (although every single one of us does at first) because so many things were beyond your control. And Muppie knows that best of all. I'm sure she was thinking of you all the time, but it was in a comforting way, a way that reassured her that, in the end, the best for her (NOT for you!) was going to happen. And she knew your Spirit was beside her every step of the journey. Now she is in the BEST POSSIBLE place, ready to help you every day, in every way. Even if you don't look beside you, Muppie is there. You don't "see" her like we do any more, but believe me, Muppie is there and will never, ever leave. Call on her new-found strength and her continuing love, for help. It will come. It WILL come.

Please take a few moments to take care of yourself! You might try eating something sustaining for now. Soon, little habits will kick in and help you out.

OH! And you have one more thing on your side: TIME. I'll talk about that next visit.

Love and sympathy,
Bobbie

I DO I WANT TO CUDDLE WITH HIM AND TELL HIM HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM.I CANT ACCEPT THAT HE IS GONE.I AM SO SCARED THAT I AM GOING TO LOSE IT.I WANT MY BOY BACK.I LOVE U MUPPIE MOMMY HURTS SO BAD FOR U