I didn't want to post this under my original Finn topic because that thread should be left to fall lower as all new grieving fur parents need the bandwidth more than me.

I am going to take a break from grieving, a deliberate conscious effort to stop Finn thoughts for a while. As much as I want to stay and try to comfort others, it's impeding my path to truly progress with the loss. If I'm here, I get think of Finn and his death. I now want to focus on his precious life. I mean, this little guy couldn't wait to wake up in the morning to Live! I watched him every day, so active, so curious, so in love with being Alive. He wasn't one of those sleepy lugs (like two of my other cats who I also adore), he was a spitfire. He loved interacting with humans like it was the greatest thing ever. If my husband and I were near, we were the greatest things in the universe and he let us know it! This cat taught me more about the simple joy of being alive with loving furparents and cat housemate friends than any religion or self help book....his death was a blip. His life was HUGE. That's what he meant to teach me in his short life and it's time I start applying the lesson.

It's Spring and I have a lot to do and I'm going on a long 4 and a half weeks now without him. It still sucks BAD! but I think I can now manage to look forward instead of backward. I think I now have the strength to force myself to 'live' again.

I have been blessed with my time here during my healing. And I hope in some small way, I've helped others. As much I want to continue to post and help others in the same initial pangs of agonizing loss, my spirit is telling me I need to focus my energies on other things. Finn would want this. He really wants me to get those cold crops in the ground (just so he could dig them up and get his white paws all dirty ).

This forum is a life saver, an emotional life saver, for so many, including myself. I sincerely don't know how I would have gotten through this time without it. There are no words to express my gratitude for whoever made this site and for those who came to my much needed aide. You are all forever in my heart--too many names to mention.

So I'm going away for a while now to continue my healing. I promise I will be back soon to check on those friends I've met and hopefully to help others. This site is too important to those who need it and I want to continue and be a part of it. And I have three more cats, one who is 13 so, god forbid, I may need you
Angels again, hopefully not TOO soon.

Finn and I Thank you, Love you and look forward to seeing you all again after this next stage of my healing journey.

PS ..as much as I want to send a personal message to all who have saved me, I don't want to get too mushy. But I really do want to thank moonbeam. There are simply no words to convey the respect and love I have for you. You have a special place in Heaven at the end of your days with Abbygale and your other furballs.

I attached a photo... to all who see it, know you are looking at a little Buddha and I hope you remember him. I know its extremely selfish to ask, but please remember my little giant, Finn McCool.

See you again in time...

ConnieJ

There is no need for explanation....many of us feel the exact same way you do. There are some wonderful selfless folks here who continue on helping those in need....I was one who had to step back and stop posting so much as I felt I needed to move along and felt it would be easier for me if I didn't post as much. I still come here and read some of the posts and post occasionally but I was unable to continue at the rate I started at.

Good luck to you and happy memories of your angel Finn,
Sonya

Hi, Connie, as Sonya has already so comfortingly shared with you the best response of all - - a resassurance that you are doing the right and best thing for you. When Abbygayle was diagnosed with Fibrosarcoma, I had to back off my frequency here for awhile because I had both Oslo and Abbygayle of very fragile health who needed my attention, particularly after I got home from work, doing errands, etc..

Finn is very proud of you for doing what you know in your heart is the right and best thing for you. Thank you so much for sharing him with us, and for posting his picture here once again for us to remember him right along with you. I am deeply honored that I have been able to help you, Connie, along with our fellow compassionate and caring correspondents on this forum. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Connie, and will look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Connie best wishes to you in your continued journey. May the wind be at your back and the sun upon your face.
Finn is a handsome cat!

Peace be with you