Just over a week ago I lost the love of my life, my precious little dog, Pepsi. For a few days I could barely form a sentence when talking to people. Today, i'm not much better. I really don't know if writing down my thoughts for you will help me but i'm desperate and badly in need of some outlet for my grief. I know my partner is suffering as well and we're trying to be strong for each other but I just need to release my demons to some strangers who have the heartbreaking misfortune of knowing just how I feel.
I won't go into detail just yet of how she passed away but if anyone wants to know, or thinks that it might help me, then i'll tell the story. All I can say at this stage is that i'm in so much pain and the agony of losing her is crippling. The world is a much sadder place without her in it and life will never be the same again. I'm so sorry if i've upset anyone, I just need to share this with others.
Thank you for reading.

Chris my condolences on the loss of Pepsi. I just lost my girl Jasmine last week and have been a basket case ever since. I have found it helpful to write and read what others are going through. There is much support here. You should share what you want to share. Yes the world is a much sadder place without our babies. Pepsi is in a good place with no suffering or pain. Someday the 2 of you will be reunited. Take care.

Thank you so much for your kind words Lynn. My other dog, Sky, and my cat, ironically called Jasmine, are by my side now having to bear the brunt of my sorrow. Bless them, they deserve medals for the comfort they are giving me.

Hi, Chris, please permit me to add my sincerest sympathies in the loss of your beloved Pepsi. Losing a beloved companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we have been blessed with the privilege of their company.

As Lynn has so comfortingly said, so I affirm her words: Just share whatever is in your heart and on your mind as you feel up to doing so. This grief journey is filled with so many different emotions, sometimes overwhelming us all at one time. One of the most important things for you to remember is that you are not alone in your grief journey, Chris. You are among friends here. Each of us are here for you for as long and as often as you need us. Sometimes the ones who are closest to us physically are unable to offer us the depth of comfort that we need for as long as we need it - - for whatever reason that may be. This is one of the many reasons why this wonderful forum was established - - as a safe place where we can come whenever we need to so that we can share what is in our hearts and on our minds with folks who truly do know what we're feeling and what we're going through.

Chris, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dear Chris,

I would love to hear more of your story. I think you will find tremedous benefit in telling it too. Don't forget to upload a photo.

you wrote:
"All I can say at this stage is that i'm in so much pain and the agony of losing her is crippling. The world is a much sadder place without her in it and life will never be the same again."

That first week is simply awful. And if your friends and family haven't experienced the same sort of thing, they just don't seem to be very helpful. Thankfully I found this place and stopped feeling so alone (and crazy) for those same crippling feelings. That is such a perfect word for the first couple weeks by the way, 'crippling'. You feel like your floating half the time and nothing seems real except the tears and that horrid pain in the pit of your stomach.

I'm only a few weeks ahead of you in this process so I truly understand how you are feeling. It will get better each day, with some setbacks along the way. I didn't think it would ever get better at one time, but it did. I can function again (I finally cleaned my house after a month) but the sadness is still there. Please keep checking in here to keep yourself sane. It really worked for me and we want to be there for you as others have been there for us.

ConnieJ

Dear Chris,

Please accept my sincere condolences on the loss of your precious dog Pepsi. I so understand when you say she was the love of our life and how the loss is crippling.

It is Ok to share here whatever is in your heart or on your mind. It is safe and you are among compassionate friends. Please know that this grief journey is filled with lots of tears and emotion. Taking it one day at a time can help, especially during the deep grief.

It is my hope that you will let us know how you are doing whenever you are ready to share.
With healing thoughts and peace,
Juturna

Hi Chris,

I think it would be very helpful for you to tell us about Pepsi and how she passed away, I know it has helped me talk about my 3 three losses on this website. We all know how you are feeling and would love to help you thru your grief.

I think you explained it perfectly when you said the loss is crippling. It is so crippling and you don't know how you are going to make it thru another day but somehow you do. And then after time the intense grief goes away and the good memories are what you think about. I have come to the conclusion that I will never "get over" the loss of my animals but I do and will move on and in some ways become an even more compassionate person because of the love I shared with them and the grief I went thru in losing them. You are right that life will never be the same again, but things will get better, I know this because I have lost three dogs in the last year and a half. Tomorrow will be week three that Barney died and I still have a lot of grieving to do but I know it will get better, I will always love him with all my heart and never forget him but somehow we continue on.

I will pray that you and your partner will find peace soon.

I hope you tell us all about Pepsi because that is a key component to healing after such a devastating loss.

Love and hugs,
Rhapsedy