With dogs, I understand their behaviour inside out. I always know what they're trying to tell me, and how they feel. But then dogs are easy to read, because in my experience they are always keen to communicate with humans. So I've always had a tight bond with my 2 affectionate little dogs. And with Bono, well he was more like a son to me than a pet.
But with my cat Sasha I struggle ... Sasha isn't friendly at all ... She just comes to me when she wants food or a warm bed to sleep on. She doesn't show me affection, or come running when she sees me. She might dander along eventually, but only because she wants me to feed her or allow her into the family room. I could be anybody. As long as she gets what she wants, she doesn't appear to care who provides it.
Sasha was my first cat, rescued at 8-months-old, and subsequently she was my only cat for 4 years. But even as a kitten she was like this, even though I adored her. I tried playing with her, bought her lots of different toys, cosy beds, her favourite foods; I tried showing her affection most of the time, putting her on my lap etc and stroking her, scratching her, cuddling her, but she didn't respond, and I soon learned that she'd rather be in her bed than anywhere near me, and that she'd only come to me when she wanted food.
So after a few months of having Sasha, I thought all cats were like her - unaffectionate, disinterested, didn't play with you, no connection.
And so I thought 'well that's just the way cats are.' And I swore I'd never keep another cat ... Because I felt that they were not a pleasure to own.
But then, after having had Sasha for 4 years, my lovely Darcey came along (I rescued her from drowning at 7-weeks-old), and oh she is such a joy. Darcey sees me and comes running, winding round my legs, rubbing up against me, she licks my hands, she jumps up on my back if I bend over. She's all about play fighting and having fun. She's all about affection. And now that I've had Darcey for over a year, I love her as much as I love my 2 dogs ... It's because of Darcey that I now understand that cats can be a pleasure to own, and that you can have a connection with them.
But with Sasha, after over 5 years of showing me little to no affection regardless of everything I have tried to do to show her love, I now struggle to understand her at all. I do my best every day to show her love but she's not interested in me. And that saddens me because I do care about her, and I'm worried about her, always sitting on her own, angry at the other animals if they come near her ... It's not just me she virtually ignores. She tolerates the other animals, but she doesn't like them to touch her, hissing and growling if they come near, including Darcey, even when she was just a 7-week-old kitten. She also has no time for my fiancé, or any visitors who come.
I don't force her to live with me. As an outdoor cat, she has a catflap into the house, and she can come and go as she pleases. So she stays with me out of choice, so she must think I'm of some use, probably just a base for food and heat ...
She seems happy in the sense that she is free to do her own thing, come and go as she pleases, she always has food, cat milk and water 24/7, and a warm bed to go to, she's 100% healthy, and my fiancé actually thinks her bad tempered hissy fits and dislike of others is actually part of her charm.
But I'm not so sure. What's wrong with Sasha?