I am so lonely today and i would give just anything to hold her. Just one more time. It's been nearly 18 months and i'm still crying.

Magdalene

I am sorry Magdalene. I too am lonely. Is that your black kitty in the pic? My annie was also black.

annie's mommy

I know that feeling so well. I am so sorry.

I feel so lonely today and just wish so much I could hold her. I can't stop crying. I have so much to do today and I can't get anything done because I can't stop crying. And if she were here, she wouldn't care if I didn't get anything done, she'd just curl up next to me and lick my face and purr. I need to hold her so much.

I know how you feel. On Sunday, it will be one year since I lost my Alley and all I can think about is how much I miss her.

I too know how that is. It has been almost a year for me too and i still miss my murphy so much. But i do know i gave him a great life. I spoiled him rotton and gave him all the love in my heart. I did everything i could to make him happy and healthy and i know you did the same. When i first lost my murphy i would wake up in the middle of the night and just cry. He was the one who would comfurt me when i was sad. He would curl up with me stairing at me and lick my hand trying to get me to feel better. and yes i miss that so much. But i know he is happy where he is and that he is no longer in pain. . no longer sick and no longer scared. He is healthy and waiting for me on the other side.
You did NOTHING wrong. I hope you dont feel you did. That is something else i know alot of people go threw. . .the what ifs. THere is nothing you could have done to chane it and you did everything you could to make it ok. So please dont think you did n e thing wrong.
there is a poem i loved when i lost my murphy. It helped comfurt me when i was unconsoleable. It is called the rainbow bridge and is just the sweetest poem i read. here you go. . .and please feel better. tomorrow and every other day is another day to touch some one knew and leave another lasting friendship. :-)

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

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We are all there with you. We know about the holding and the missing. Its been 3 months since I lost my favorite...Little Guy...the last of 3 related cats. I had him over 16 years. I look at his pictures and he is just so beautiful....I want to hold him again.

I'm thinking .... its been 3 months since I held him...it seems like forever.

Yes..it is hard to get started doing things. I'm in the middle of that also. My avatar shows my baby and he was looking like that not that many months ago and I remember going up to him lying like that and putting my arms around him and hugging him and telling him what a good boy he is....yes...I miss that. Yes...that can make you cry..

I think the crying is cause we don't want to accept their physical presence has left..................what a painful, painful thought. I guess we cry until we are exhausted. Exhaustion sometimes feels like the only relief. The pain will always be there but in time it will not take over everything. We don't know each other's babies but we all know how much we miss ours and that's a feeling we all share equally and understand that feeling in each other. When you say about needing to hold her so much...oh, yes, that causes a tremendous ache inside and sometimes you can feel so helpless trying to think of how to get rid of the painful feelings. Maybe looking at her pictures when she was with you and happy and healthy can help ease things a little. It is those memories that cannot be taken away from us. Take care and know your pain is shared by all.