Today I found myself crying and really missing Lollie some kind of bad! January 6th, will be four months since she passed but it seems like it's been forever since I held her in my arms, if I just had one more time to let her know how much I loved her. I thought I was doing really good but then the holidays came and remembering how much she loved to get her new sqeaky toy out of her stocking and how much she absolutely loved my musical dolls. Tonight it feels like she just died all over again. I know I will get passed this somehow but God how I miss her!!

Hi...we haven't met yet but that story of woe is all too familiar. I lost my baby about 6 weeks ago. She was "Chase" and as ferrets go she was a bright and inquisitive little tyke....now she is gone. I cry too. For some reason I cried as I wrote that last line. I don't know why....the feeling suddenly came over me...so I did. I recently mentioned in another post how things outside ourselves can trigger tides of emotion within us. Suddenly we can be in that place of dark sorrow...the kind we felt when our babies just died. It brings tears to my eyes to write those words. Do you see what I mean? An event occured just now that dragged me back to "that day". Christmas...New Years...traditionally times of the year when we look forward to things associated with it....being together with friends & family. But if we have had that dark spectre of doom snatch one of are babies from us, times like that take on a whole new meaning for people like us. They bring want and sadness into our lives because now we have been changed for all time...These happy times of the year can never be the same....because our babies can't be with us. Lollie, like Chase has left a scar on our hearts. The wound will heal, but the scar never will. I will grieve with you. We will do it together. It's not harming anything, your human...so am I. Yes we will get through this....you came here to be with someone like you who lost something like you, and in a small way that IS the spirit of Christmas. It's being...together

Be kind to yourself
I'm glad you came
I will think of Lollie and Chase together

I'm so sorry you lost your Lollie. Somehow the holidays are always hard after a big loss, like you lose them all over again.

I lost my Butch kitty 10 years ago, and I always cry when I get out his Christmas stocking. Ten years, and yes I still put the stocking up.

We lost our Moose kitty in Oct. It was very sudden, he was only 10. I know Lollie was just 9, it's hard to lose them like that. We feel robbed, like we should have had more time.

thinking of you
Lori