My sweet Baby Misty crossed the bridge with the help of my vet at 11:30am Sept. 12th.I was and am so devastated once again. She hadn't been eating much since her diagnosis on Friday and she was getting more dehydrated as the days went on. It was only a matter of time. She spent the last few days of her life mostly under our bed. She wouldn't drink any liquids. I fed her people tuna and &en and all she would really do is drink the liquid in the bowl..she wouldn't eat any of the food and she wouldn't drink the bowls of water I would leave out for her. At times I would take a syringe and force feed her water.

I had to make the decision to put her down and then I had to go to work right after. I cried like a baby when I was holding her at the Vet but to be honest I don't think it has really hit me yet. I cried when I got home from work .I know I am emotionally exhausted right now

I have made arrangements to have her cremated on Sat. Sept 16th.
She was so unique. I am so grateful for having her for 18 years.She was my 1st furbaby. I know she is playing with everyone's furbaby, not in any pain and having the time of her life. I am so heartbroken.As many of you remember, I also lost my baby Emily to kidney failure this past May 6th.

As with Emily I held her in my arms and talked to her telling her how much I loved her and that I would see her again someday.

It's kind of weird this time.I don't seem to be as emotionally upset as I was with Emily. Maybe it's because I knew it was coming this time or maybe I'm still in shock. Does that make any sense?

I forgot to add one thing after the Vet gave her the shot and her heart stopped he explained to me what was happening and I asked him of she could still hear me and he said they didn't think so and he left the room.

As I was still holding her and talking to her and I put my ear down to see if I could hear her heartbeat but instead of hearing silence I swear I heard her purr. It was only for a brief second but I know what I heard. I truly think it was Misty's way of telling me that she's ok, she wasn't suffering anymore and she was ready to go to the bridge. I think that's what gives me a strange sense of peace.

Thanks to everyone here at LS for your support.

I have been in your shoes more times than I can bear to think about, and I know how cold comfort it is to know you did the right thing. My heart goes out to you.

I am sorry for your loss... I know when I helped my Simba go to the bridge I was really torn up because I was afraid that it would hurt him and it was be an unpleasant thing. Once I seen how quick and painless it was I was very relieved. Hurt because my best friend was gone but at the same time so glad it was quick and painless. He was the first cat I had and first animal I ever seen pts. So maybe just not knowing has alot to do with the pain the first time.

Also, when they were giving Simba "the shot" I know I felt some vibration in his chest, the same kind you feel when you touch a purring cat. I think maybe that is a way they tell us they are glad we are helping them and I also think it is because they are being met by someone or another cat just as they are passing on and happy to see them. I have heard stories about dogs wagging tails as if they are happy to see someone while being pts.

You gave your baby the greatest gift: your love and support. Making "the decision" is the hardest thing any human can do. I've never gone through such a range of emotions before and hope I never have to go through that again.
Just know you DID do the right thing, she's not suffering and is at peace. You will be reunited someday but know she is safe and being taken care of.
If you can, have her ashes blessed. I did that for Precious and have felt more at peace ever since.
Lisa

Emily's Mom,

All my sympathies to you for the passing of your dear Misty, and so soon after losing your precious Emily, too. This must be so terribly hard for you.....and to have to go to work right afterwards......I can't even imagine!

You said,

[quote]I don't seem to be as emotionally upset as I was with Emily. Maybe it's because I knew it was coming this time or maybe I'm still in shock. Does that make any sense?

I wanted to let you know that that's how I was feeling for the first couple of weeks or so after losing our Nissa and it worried me no end. It was VERY different from when we lost her brother, Sabin, at age 13. Plus, it felt rather like a betrayal to her, seeing as I could barely cry. Now, I think it was mainly shock, plus a bit of having done so much anticipatory grieving for several months beforehand, knowing with her age ( 19 yrs, 7 months ) and all her serious conditions, we were living on borrowed time anyway. But I can tell you that as each day wears on now ( at Day 21 today ), while there's still some shockiness, my pain is starting to surface more each day and I've been crying, both deeply and more quietly, much more often. I've found that neither reaction is easier - they both suck...but at least I get some release from the ability to cry. So maybe you had the answer - it's a bit of both, same as I'm finding.

I'm so sorry. I don't have many words of comfort right now, as I'm still early in my own process and hurting so badly, too.......but know that I'm one of the many others who understand how impossibly difficult these times are for us, and that you're being (((held))) in my heart, too.