Well, i have had this link on my website for awhile (in a collection of rainbow bridge links) and now i am using it. i dont know for sure if steve is dead, but he's been missing for a week. i rescued him from a shelter in las vegas where i worked. he was a feral baby and had one brother that later died of a feline cold. his mother was later brought into the shelter and socialized.

i had steve with me when my now ex-boyfriend and i were having major troubles. i moved steve and i up to my hometown where my parents live. he was an indoor-outdoor cat, which i now regret, but he was so psycho sometimes it was hard to keep him inside.

hes been missing for a week now. i havent heard anything. ive posted flyers all around our area. ive even gone door to door with mini flyers with his picture and a description and my number. ive gotten a couple calls about black cats, but theres no way to tell if its him, and if its not, which direction do i start looking in?

again, its been a week and im starting to lose hope. i still have a few more nearby neighborhoods to 'canvas' but i cant help but think that he is gone. i dont know if he was hit by a car - we havent found a body, which is probably the hardest on me. i have always had a lot of hope, and i will continue to have some hope until i see his form again. part of me hopes someone took him in, in which case, there is still a chance that i will see him again someday, hopefully soon. i also hope that, if he was hit by a car, or caught by a coyote (we kind of live in the desert) that it was a quick death, because i think the thing that is bothering me most right now, aside from the fact that i dont know where he is or if hes okay, is whether or not he felt/feels pain. i cant stand thinking about that part.

i know i need to have a good cry. the fall semester starts tomorrow, and right now im at my graveyard job with no work to do, so i thought id look on sites about pet loss. knowledge is power and hopefully i can control some aspect of this. i might get off work early so i can go home and be alone in my room, under my covers, in the bed that i shared with him, and cry in the dark. let it all out.

steve is all black, i will post a picture soon. i just logged on to this website 10 minutes ago. he was less than a year old. his birthday would have been next month.

i have a friend who has a service dog and sometimes we joked that steve was my service cat. i really miss him and hope to god that he is okay and can be back in my arms again. he wasnt even a year old, thats what bugs me so much. we have other cats, older cats, and if they were to go, i would still be sad, but i also know their time is coming soon. steve was so young.

anyway, i still have some hope, but its fading fast as days go by and no one calls with a sighting.

it helped me a bit to read others' stories, and im going to read more, but it makes me cry and i dont want to cry at work with other people around, so i might go home and read them later. but i just wanted to get a post in so i can talk with others, because i know communication helps. i dont want to keep it inside.

I will keep you in my prayers that Steve returns to you.

Take care of yourself.

Dugan's Mom
Krissyo

I know exactly what you are going thru. I took one of my cats Lindsey to the vet in April of 05 and when I put the kitty carrier down on the ground so I could get out of the car I never realized that the carrier door wasn't properly latched and Lindsey got loose.
I drove around the neighborhood 2 and 3 times a day everyday,I asked people if they had seen her and also knocked on doors close to where she got loose.It was the worse feeling not knowing if she was alive, hungry, thristy, it just tore me up not knowing.
I did this for almost 5 months when I received a call from my boss who said that a cat that looked like Lindsey was across the street from his house.
To make a long story short I did manage to get her back 1 week shy of 5 months after she got loose.
I guess what I'm trying to say is don't give up hope. Cats are amazing when it comes to survival.It's very possible that Steve is in hiding and afraid to come out. Or he only comes out at certain times of the day. Try to remember his routine at home . Did he sleep during the day or did he roam outside.Things like this will help in your search for him.
Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.