I'm so sorry about your pain!

In the realm where Sal's spirit is now, he's not helpless. He's empowered with bliss, and he's not aware of the pain of separation from you (I believe that's a sense only we, who are still in the confines of our physical bodies, are aware of). To Sal, it will seem like no time has passed-----and you'll be joining him.
You took care of him while he was in his earthly "shell" but he's fine now. He's still connected to you, in spirit form, and to an even greater love (even though that seems impossible, that there could be such a powerful love). You'll be fully reunited with Sal when it is your time to pass.
I'm glad you found this site. Please take good care of yourself---Sal would want that, and if the roles were reversed, you'd want that for him.

You will make it. Keep us posted on how you're doing.
Sending prayers of peace,
Kathy