On December 27th 2005, I had to do something that I always dreaded. I had to put down my 13 year old yellow lab. I knew it would come, but never wanted it to. This past year was difficult for her because of her arthritis, but the last months have been the worst. Right before the vet put her down, our eyes locked for a breif second. I'll never forget how innocent she looked. I refused to allow myself to cry. Then she pulled her head back and closed her eyes for the very last time. Her breathing was slow and I felt her heart stop beating. She looked so peaceful, and I smiled knowing that Ginger was in a better place. Her birthday (Feb 4th) just passed and she would have been 14. It's been 42 days since she's been gone, and there hasn't been a day when I didn't think of her. I did eventually cry, but it was such a painfully feeling. It was almost like my soul was crying. It still really hurts, but taking it one day at a time helps. I wrote about after Ginger passed, and it felt like so much weight was lifted.

Tuesday's Gone

I watched the rain fall down today
I saw the sky turn black
I felt your heart slowly stop beating
I tell myself your not coming back

Everyday I ask myself
Why did you have to die?
You’re time on earth was much too short
I wasn’t ready to say goodbye

It seems like only yesterday
You were running through the grass
Jumping around so playfully
We didn’t notice how quickly the time seemed to pass

You always made me so happy
And brought a smile to my face
I’ll forever cherish these memories
That time can never erase

I force myself to carry on
I pretend that none of this is real
A part of me has died with you
Some wounds will never heal

The house seems so quite now
I don’t hear your footsteps on the floor
I keep thinking that you’re still here
Then I see your empty spot by the door

You gave me fourteen years of friendship
And now I’m left with your memory
But I guess when you really love someone
You have to set them free






So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

I miss you puppy...

What a gem she must have been. Such a sweet angelic face.