I cant believe he is gone two weeks. Its as raw as yesterday. In fact I cant believe he i s gone at all. I still have not gotton any answers from my vet about what happened and now know I never will. Its making it harder as it was sudden and i feel I failed him in so many ways. I never expected anything would get easier but does anyone find it harder every day instead?..most of me is still trying desperatly and stupidly to say its not real but the thing about a little time is you are made to see the truth as each day passes and the nightmare doesnt end. I hate my house now , It does not feel like my home anymore. Its about all I can do to go from room to room as each and every place I look there is emptiness where such a short time ago the best friend I truly ever had was . How do i go from looking at him everywhere I went for over 10 years to him being just gone. My mind will not accept what it knows. The pain is so severe so many times a day sometimes just all day. Because I have a 3 year old son Im trying to pull myself together for him. I know Im not doing Max any favours either if he is able to see me like this. I wanted to say thank you to all the wonderful people I have met who have helped me through their own grief. I am so very grateful to them for helping me when they too are suffering. Rainbow Bridge has helped me an awful lot too. Its funny we, every single one of us from the start of time has begged for time to be turned back and to please let this not be happening and for it all to be a dream. We probably always will. If only it were possible.

Hi Lisa, good to hear from you.
I'm sorry you are feeling so badly it certainly doesn't help that you still have no answers from the vet.

Just a thought, have you tried searching for online "Ask the vet" sites. Maybe they can help with your questions about Max's passing and hopefully bring you some much needed peace. It's so hard emotionally and physically when grieving even when everything is clear, you do need some answers to help you along that sad journey.

I truly hope you find them

Hugs
Kaylee.

I'm sorry for your loss and that you don't have any answers. I know how hard it hurts. My Rosie died on Monday morning. I just wanted to give you a cyber (((HUG)))

Lisa, Max was (is) a beautiful dog! I can really relate to you saying you hate your house now. It doesn't feel like home anymore without my cat scampering around.
Just hang in there. The thing I am trying to do is to not think about her death anymore and just remember her life, though it's really hard.
prayers for max and all the lost pets
Scarlett

Lisa,
I know that you have been experiencing a tough two weeks and just wanted to remind you that you have friends here that will support you when you need it. Your beautiful Max was indeed unique, such gentle eyes, and it will take time. Please take care of yourself.
Your friend,
Pat