To all of you here, my heart, what is left of it goes out to you. I searched and searched until I found this site to just express myself and share a common bond with other aching souls. My 18½ yr old Maine Coon died yesterday morning and I am devastated beyond words. Leroy was my constant companion, a faithful friend when I had none, and a trouble-making joy. He would "trill" us awake way too early, eat way too much - including things like thawing strip steaks on the counter that he helped himself to and come to bed with me every single night. This house is so quiet without him, I can barely stand to be here. The grief I feel is so overwhelming it is driving me crazy - sometimes I swear I hear him walking across the wood floors or meowing from another room. I can't sleep yet I'm exhausted. When he passed away, he took part of me with him and I'm not sure I'll ever get it back. Won't be too much Christmas spirit this year without Leroy under the tree, in fact I don't even want a tree this year since he won't be here to knock the ornaments off.
I'm grateful for a space like this to grieve openly about him. Thanks.

Karen, I am so sorry about the loss of your good friend Leroy, my heart goes out to you! :hug:

andrea

Hi Karen,

I am so sorry for your loss....my thoughts and prayers are with you tonight...

Take Care,
Rubie

Please let me echo the remarks of the above posters. I am so sorry for the grief you are feeling, particularly since this is supposed to be the holiday season. How lucky you were to have your best friend with you for 18 and 1/2 years! I am sure that this makes the grieving all the worse because he has been a constant presence in your life for so long. No words can make the hole in your heart go away, but rest assured that you have come to the right place to help the healing begin. Everyone here understands, and grieves with you. Please try to remember the good times. I know that is a lot to ask right now. Come back and tell us more about Leroy. You have friends here. God bless.

Karen -
I am so sorry for your loss.....I also had a Main Coon and his name was Buster and he was very much as you described Leroy.."a trouble making joy!".....I'm sure Leroy and Buster are both playing happily together at the Rainbow Bridge!

Take care of yourself...

Karen