Tomorrow Gandalf will be missing 5 weeks. I miss my little gray kitty so much. I've just about exhausted all my resources for finding him. Yesterday I put up more posters a little farther away and I keep waiting for the phone to ring. I check the local shelter online multiple times a day. I go there once a week to check the DOA and injured lists and check out the kitties just in case. I'm losing hope that he'll come home on his own but I still put food out every night, so far I'm feeding a black kitty but not Gandalf.

I go to bed every night hoping that he'll be home in the morning. I awake every morning sad not to feel him running up my body and seeing his little gray face peering at me nose to nose. My emotions alternate between grief and hope, I'm not sure how much more I can take. Some days are better than others but there aren't many moments when he's not on my mind.

He is only 11 months old and I was really hoping to have him for many years. After so much loss in the last year I tried not to take anything for granted. I showered him with love and treasured every moment with him but I want more time. Gandalf touched my heart more deeply and quickly than any animal I've ever had. I just can't believe he's not out there somewhere waiting for me to find him. Maybe I'm being obsessive and overly optimistic......

I have two 1 year old kitties named Sabrina and Max and as much as I love them it's just not the same. I know they miss him too, along with my black lab Thor. They still look for Gandalf to play with and my lab whines when I say Gandalf's name.

My husband is over it and told me last week that I should just get over it and move on. It hurt my feelings when he said that and I can't. My husband admitted that he's just not that attached to the cats but Thor our dog is different. I know he will suffer as much as I will when we lose Thor. All of this has made me appreciate each day with my furbabies a little more but it also reminds me that someday I'll feel this pain all over again.

Gandalf I love you so much. I miss you and I'm trying hard to find you. Come home little buddy, we need you.

Hugs,
Dawn

Dear Dawn,

I'm so sorry that Gandalf is still missing, and even sadder to read that your other furbabies are missing him so much, too.

I know this is a very difficult situation...at least when a pet dies you have some sense of closure, but with a missing pet you never really have that closure.

You're in my thoughts.
Kathleen

Dear Dawn,

I'm sorry that Gandalf hasn't returned home, yet. As Kathleen said, you can't have the closure when a pet is missing as you can, when you lose them through death. I wish he could find his way home to you.

I know what you mean about that special bond. I shared that bond with my beloved rabbit, Rusty and share it also with my (current) dog, Heidi. I have other pets but it's just not the same. Maybe Gandalf has found a kind family who took him in. (He didn't have a collar on, right?) I know that animals travel long distances when they're lost so it's possible that Gandalf is at a shelter far from your house. I have heard of pets returning home after being gone a long time, too so that's always a possibility.

I wish I could say something to make you feel better. I'll say a prayer tonight that Gandalf will come home.

Take care,
Lynn

Dear Dawn, I know it must be so painful for you not to know what happened to your sweet Gandalf. I know you have done all you can to find your baby, did you run an ad in the Newspaper too? Maybe your Gandalf was taken in by a family.

I hope you don't think this is far fetched with so much time having gone by, but maybe you could put Thor on a leash and go walking and tell him to find Gandalf. Maybe he couldn't find Gandalf but it would be worth a try.
Love, Ann