I want to thank everyone who has placed a reply to my past posts, and the words of encouragement LS members have given.
A special thanks to Jim who seems to have shared a journey with Little Man that was very similar to my time with Bo.
Today marks a month since I saw Bo for the last time as they placed the cover over his casket and I carried him to the grave site. It was hard taking him where I would never want him to go but I felt it was something I had to do.
I went to the cemetary yesterday and sat by his grave and just drifted off in to the memories I have of him. It is so hard. An older couple drove up while I was there and we talked about the loss of our pets and I think we took comfort in each others words. There are so many of us suffering the loss of beloved animals it is so sad. I keep telling myself to move forward and stop torturing myself with the grief. His food and water bowl is still on the cabinet where I placed it the night he passed away. I still have his little pillow bed next to the picture window where he loved to sit and watch the world go by while I was gone to work. His collar is hanging on the mirror in my truck and once in a while it makes the familiar jingling sounds it made when he wore it.
It seems so odd to grieve this much. I can't remember any other time in my life when a loss has affected me so much.
I had better stop now this post is getting awfully long.
I tried to attach a picture of Bo taken around Christmas last year. He needed a hair cut and I had planned to get him one once the weather warmed up this spring but .........................
Thanks for listening.
Darrell (& Bo)

I too am going through a 4 week anniv today. I'm sorry for your loss and agree with what you said about people supporting you here.
Take care.
Audrey

My Amber has been gone three weeks and I too have her pillow where she last laid ~ on the bed in the Master Bedroom ~ I have flowers on "her table" where I used to keep her bowls ~ everything in there is as it was the day I carried her out for the last time ~ it is hard because that room was her home ~ she lived there her last years to keep her safe and sound and stress free ~ She was with me 20 years ~ that is from age 35 to now age 55 ~ my life is so radically different without her there in 10,000 ways ~ and it is different for a pet ~ they are there when nobody else is ~ they become part of us ~ and know us ~ and for me was just an extension of my personality ~ I too ~ miss her so much ~ Oh that is not to say my life is bad ~ it is not ~ my life is filled with blessings ~ it is just that the ME part is altered somehow by Amber's passing ~ we were connected ~ she could tell what I was feeling from three rooms away ~ I know you understand the bond I am describing ~ I miss my sweetie so MUCH ~ I can so relate to your post ~ I am so thankful for everyone here ~ because of you and all the others here I have been able to know that I am not alone ~ what a gift ~ My heart goes out to you ~ God Bless ~ Kathryn