It's been a little over 2 weeks now since I lost my Rosa. She was my 12 y/o longhair Daschund. I had to put her to sleep on Good Friday. I cried nonstop for 10 days. Since then it's been a little easier. After one week I finally vac%%ed the living room carpet of her fur. I still haven't done the hallway or the bedroom. when she died I gave a collage of her pictures to my ex-wife, therefore not leaving me with any pictures. I got rid of all her belongings the day she died. Now that 2 weeks have gone by, I asked my wife to please bring back the pictures. I put them back on the wall and I cried a little. But now I am starting to think of the good memories rather than the sad end. I have a surviving Daschund Heidi. She is doing remarkably well. In the first few days she was looking for Rosa, but now I think she understands what has happened and is now top dog. I think she knows that she has some new responsibilities with that tital. She used to be the one that ran to the doggie door and barked, then looked over her shoulder and Rosa would come running and take over the job. Heidi with then just sit back and watch. Now she barks and looks over her shoulder and I say "It's up to you girl, go take care of it" She immediately runs out and attends to business. I don't think I will ever get over the loss of Rosa but It's now somewhat tolerable. I'm not in denial anymore. I have never doubted my judgement to put her to sleep and she was beginning to suffer. I haven't posted in the last few days, but felt the need to do so today. I feel so bad for the people who have lost their pets in the last couple of days because for me the beginning was the absolute worst. My life was literally on hold. I could not function or even carry out the daily responsibilities, and I didn't care. I will close for now and I thank everyone what has helped me thru this very rough time.

Rusty

Rusty, I am glad that you were able to get some pictures back to put up on your walls. I know how hard it still is at 2 weeks and it still hurts so much. There will still be many times when it will hit hard again until it will let up. Even 5 months down the road it hurts so much sometimes. Hang in there it will get better with time.
Ann

Dear Rusty ~ Today is 2 weeks for the loss of my precious Amber ~ it still hurts so much ~ yesterday I was having the worst time with guilt over not trying harder ~ but I know in my heart that the Vet loved her too and he knew there was nothing we could do that would make her well ~ that in itself is the worst feeling in the world ~ My life is not on hold but it is hollow ~ I have some ways to comfort myself ~ quilts ~ the sofa bed ~ herbal tea ~ pajamas ~ and at least now some visits to my Master Suite ~ I still cannot think of sleeping on my bed which was actually "her Bed" and I still cannot turn off the Classical Music that was "her music" ~ its so hard ~ My heart goes out to you Rusty as you continue to heal from this ~ your healing strengthens me ~ please keep sharing here ~ Peace Be With You ~