Picasso was a shorthair orange male Persian who came to our shelter about four years ago. He had been rescued from his owner who had kept him shut in a closet for his whole life so no one would know he was there. He was declawed on all four paws, but it wasn't right. Whatever vet had done the procedure had done a terrible job, and his paws were sore and dysfigured. The problems didn't stop there. He had chronic watery eyes, and breathing problems, probably from having no circulation. His teeth were almost all gone, so he could only eat canned food, and it was impossible to tell his age. It ranged from 2-20. No one could tell.
When Picasso came to our shelter he had every reason to be "vicious" or scared of people. But not Picasso. He was the sweetest, most gentle cat alive. Everyone who worked there fell in love with him, and so began the second part of his life.
Picasso was adopted once or twice, but he was always brought back because he couldn't use a litterbox. We tried everything from a cookie sheet with waxed paper, to a puppy pad. He did eventually use it, usually. From then on my sweet baby was plagued with even worse health problems. For a while he fostered kittens, but we found that they were to rough with him and he had bites all over him. So he was a resident cat. He'd live there till the end.
Picasso had to be spoon fed most of his life, and we'd make a pointed hill of his food so he could grab it. Picasso and I bonded tremendously during those feedings, and when he was let out, he would stare under the door crack for me to come back. He followed me around and I admit, I was truly in love with him. Once a month he would get really sick and almost die. The vet encouraged the manager to put him down, but he was everyone's favorite.
About 2 years later, I had no choice (or so it seems) but to stop volunteering. I'll never forget the last time I saw him. When I said goodbye I felt like the worst person on Earth. A month later I saw on their website that he had been found dead in his condo.
Even now (at this moment), I still cry my eyes out. I should have been there for him, taken him home, or something. I wonder if he thought of me when I left and thought I abandoned him. I would do anything to see him again. Anything.
Thanks for letting me remember, and share the story of the kindest cat who ever lived. I'm sorry about the length!

I love you Picasso. Wait for me at the bridge! I'll be there.