Last night my husband and I made the toughest decision of ours lives, we had to put Smokey to sleep. About 2 years ago he started having seizures and they subsided but in the past 3 months he took a turn for the worst. He was having more and more and we kept giving him more and more medicine. He was always "doped up" and yesterday he had a really bad seizure. We decided this was best for him, his quality of life was poor, he'd tip ove all the time and was just "drugged".
I feel terrible, this was my "baby boy" and I feel like I will never get over this. I never thought I could cry so much. I haven't stopped yet. Everything in my house reminds me of him. I have this guilt to whether or not I did the right thing. I miss him so much

Kelly

I know how you feel.My precious friend passed away January 13th 2005.I hadn't a choice but to euthanize her - she was struggling to breathe. I still cannot get over it.I keep on wondering things too.
I miss her so much.There isn't a day that goes by that I don't cry at least once.I think losing our pets is hard because they have never done anything wrong to us -EVER.They just loved us.

Thank you for writing your message.I felt as though noone understood until I saw your message.

Hi Kelly, I am so sorry for the loss of your little precious Smokey. That was so very sad and heartwrenching that he was so drugged up that he tipped over all the time and had seizures that made the quality of his life so bad. The tears and the crying will ease up and the pain will lessen and you hopefully will be able to find some peace.

We all question as to whether we did the right thing because our pain is so great from missing them so much. We are human and we want them back with us but we do not want them sick and in pain and living a life that is so painful to them. Try to think of it as the greatest gift of love you could have ever given to Smokey to set him free from his pain. We all know how hard losing our babies are and all the questions and doubts that follow. Keep coming and talking with us. Ann

Bijou's best friend we here at LS understand the pain and sorrow that come with losing our best friends and our babies. Please come make a post and talk to us about your baby.Ann

I am sorry about your loss, i know how hard it is, believe me I know all to well. It is losing a member of your family and your best friend. It is a journey through grief that we all share here, some have more time into it than others, and we just help each other along. Pamela

Dear friends,
I too am sorry for your losses.
So many of us have been through the agonizing decision of ending the pain for our beloved pets.
It is the hardest thing I've ever done too.
Many people here at LS share your pain and will help support you through it.
Thinking of you during this very difficult time.
Fran

Dear Kelly,

I am so sorry about Smokey. I know that was not an easy decision for you.

I know exactly how you feel. I lost my beloved Sasha this last Saturday. I have had a terrible couple of days. In fact, I barely got out of bed yesterday I felt so awful. Communicating with other people here helped me. I know we all have a long way to go before we get through this, but at least we are not alone in this.

I am trying hard to think of the happy and healthy times I had with my Sasha and not how she looked at the end. I guess we will just have to take it a day at a time.

Nancy

Thank you all for the support. I wasn't going to go to work today, but being home was terrible, so I made myself take a shower and went in. I am lucky to work with my husband so that helped. I was pretty good during the day but know I feeling the pain a lot more. I know it will take time. Thanks again to you all.

Kelly

ps. I am trying to get a picture of Smokey as my avitar but it does not seem to work, CDan anyone help me??? I am new to this whole downloading of pictures I am probably doing it wrong.

Open you picture in windows picture and fax viewer, I just double click on mine from my pictures and it opens in this program.

Run your arrow over the icons at the bottom until one reads ‘closes this program and opens the picture for editing’ – the icon looks like a blue picture.

Click on ‘Image’ at the top and from the drop down select ‘stretch and skew’

Change horizontal and vertical from 100% to 25% and save under a name you will remember and change save as type (at the bottom) to JPEG


Then on lightning strike go to –

Mr Controls

Click on
Avatar settings

Browse to choose your picture and then alter the size underneath 128 and 128 or mess around till you get it the size you want but 128 is the biggest.

Otherwise find out what program your pictures on in and maybe some else will be able to help.

Love Sue

Dear Kelly,

I'm so sorry for your loss of Smokey.

We all have guilt and questions about whether or not we made the right choice when we have our furbabies put down. With him being so drugged, having seizures, and tipping over, it sounds like you made the right decision. Smokey isn't having seizures any more, he's not falling down, or having to rely on medication...he's running and playing at the Rainbow Bridge.

You're in my thoughts.
Kathleen

Thank you Sue, now everyone can see my cutie, baby boy. Thank again everyone for all the support and the wonderful stories of your loved ones. Knowing that other people are going through what I am going through helps a lot.
Kelly

Smokey is bueatiful. They are all so bueatiful in there own way, each one with a unique personality. One thing is for sure...we all share a deep longing for our best friends. Pamela

Today I am home from work and I am waiting to receive Smokey's ashes. I hope they come today. It is very hard to be home alone. A friend of mine has a weimaraner and was SMokey's best friend so I went and picked him up today so he can keep me company. He also has to learn that Smokey is gone. It is hard I miss him so much.
My husband and I are going to Aruba and he suggested that we bring Smokey's ashes with us. Is that weird? I would love to have him with us but I don't even know if the airline would allow it. We will see. Thanks again for all the support.
Kelly

Smokey was such a handsome fellow!

I don't think it's weird that you'd want to take Smokey's ashes. I carry one of Shiloh's dog tags with me everywhere.

I'm glad that you have Smokey's best friend with you today. You can support each other.

Dear Abby’s Mommy,
Thank you for understanding.I found this site because I needed to read or see that other people understand .I was feeling like a whacko.I have experienced the loss of loved ones before but this heartache is different.Bijou was my first and only dog.She was with me for close to 21 years.She died after a strong battle with cancer. I guess I knew it was coming but I thought I had more time even though she couldn’t use her back legs anymore.She was still happy!She still wagged her tail and gave kisses!
She was having trouble sleeping though. It was just a regular appointment at the clinic to see if I could improve her palliative care.BIG mistake on my part….it stressed her out and she never came home again and I had to euthanize her 3 days later at the clinic. It also bothers me that when I went to the clinic to see her she smelled like urine and had a dirty bum. It bothers me that I couldn’t stay with her in ICU and care for her like she was used too…maybe she thought I abandoned her! I think being there took away her will to live.

You obviously know what I am going through after going through it 2 times and are going through it for a third time.I ‘m sure I will eventually adopt another friend but I have a fear that I will compare him/her to my precious Bijou.Did you ever feel like that?

Is that Abby in the picture? She is a cutey pie!

Dear Ann H,

Thank you so much for caring.As you well know – it means a lot right now to know that others care and especially understand.

Snookie! I love that name! It suits her.She looks like a little “snookie”.

Thank you Indy’s Mom for caring and sharing with me.


Indy is a little doll.How old is she in the photo?

Dear Pamela,
The hurt feels different this time than losing other family members.This time it feels like a piece of me is gone.I’ve lost my Mother and my husband-it didn’t feel like this.I was depressed when my family members passed away but thanks to my loving Bijou I got through it….but I don’t have her now to help me get through this.
It feels like the end of an era.

Dear Kelly,

I am so sorry you lost your precious Smokey. He was so handsome. (If the airline allows it, I most definately would take Smokey's ashes to Aruba.)

I've been off the site since the end of January due to computer problems and I've missed so many posts, new people starting this sad journey. LS is wonderful......so many kind people here who all feel the same about our pets. We know exactly what you're going through.

Bijou's Mom - My sympathy to you on the loss of your beautiful Bijou. I know you are devastated. I had my first dog for nearly 17 years and I thought that was a long time.........almost 21 years for you and Bijou, that's an era, for sure.

Thinking of you,
Lynn

Dearest Kelly,

Thank you so much for your kind words of understanding.
I had a bunny baby too.He was named Pee Wee and he was a dwarf rabbit.Bijou loved him and thought he was her baby.
He died of old age in his sleep 6 years ago.I had Bijou to help me get through his death.
Bijou was extremely gentle and friendly with all creatures.Poor little thing got got her nose all scratched up once peeking under my neighbours balcony to say "hello" to some stray cats. Poor cats were scared to death I guess.