Hey Baby Han,
Nine months today, you've been gone. How I miss you! I cannot believe I haven't seen your precious face in such a long, long time. I still miss you as much as ever, and I know that I always will. There will never, ever be another Hannah for mommy.

I keep your picture by my bed now. Yours is still the first face I see in the morning and the last face I see before I turn out my light. Oh, I wish I could really see you and hold you again, and I am waiting for that day to come.

You were the best thing ever in my life, but you know that, I hope. I love you little girl. I love you.

Mommy

I want to dedicate the following poems to my Hannah and to all of my LS friends and their "children." A very special thanks to Jim, Little Man's Zoey's Dad, who gave me permission awhile back to use the beautiful poem he wrote for Little Man.

I can't see you with my eyes anymore, but I can see you in my mind.
I can't touch you with my hands, but I can feel you in my heart.
I can't hold you in my arms, but I can hold you in my dreams.
And above all, I can and will remember you with all my love.
By: Jim (Little Man Zoey)

Sorrow
Sorrow fills a barren space
You close your eyes and see my face
And think of times I made you laugh
The love we shared...the bond we had
The special way I needed you...
The friendship shared by just we two

The day's too quiet, the world seems older
The wind blows now a little colder
You gaze into the empty air
And look for me, but I'm not there...
I'm in Heaven and I watch you
And I see the world around you too

I see little souls wearing fur
Souls who bark and souls who purr
Born unwanted and unloved
I see all this and more above...
I watch them suffer, I see them cry
I see them lost, I watch them die

I see unwanted thousands born...
And when they die, nobody mourns
These little souls wearing fur
(Some who bark and some who purr)
Are castaways who...unlike me...
Will never know love or security

A few short months they starve and roam
Or caged in shelters...nobody takes home
They're special too...furballs of pleasure...
Filled with love and each one, a treasure
My pain and suffering came to an end
So don't cry for me, my person, my friend

But think of the living...those souls with fur
(Some who bark and some who purr)
And though our bond can't be broken apart
Make room for another in you home and your heart
(--Author Unknown--)

Bright Eyes
There's a fog on the horizon
A strange glow in the sky
And nobody knows where you can go
Or what does it mean
Oh-oh is it a dream...

Is it a kind of shadow
Reaching over the hill
Wandering over the hills unseen
Or is it a dream...

There's a high wind in the trees
A cold sound in the air
And nobody knows where you can go
And where do you start
Oh-oh into the dark...

Bright eyes
Burning like fire
Bright eyes
How can you close and fail
How can the eyes that burned so brightly
Suddenly grow so pale
Bright eyes
By: Mike Blatt
I miss you, Hannah, my little bright-eyed beauty.

Dear Marcia, I just wanted you to know I am thinking of you and your precious little Hannah Anna beauty queen. The poems are all so wonderful they all speak of the love and the longing we have for our precious babies.

Your little girl was well loved and I'm sure she gave that love back to you with everything that was in her heart. I know that someday we will hold them again but until then it is such a long hard wait and our hearts will never be the same until we embrace them once again. Hugs
Love, Ann

Dear Marcia,

What a touching tribute to such a sweet girl.............and Jim's words to his precious Little Man Zoey............simply beautiful.

Thinking of you at this milestone of 9 months.

Love,
Lynn

I'm sorry I missed this before Marcia.

You know, the Bright Eyes poem is on the movie version of "Watership Down" in the form of a song.

Anyways - I think our two furbabies are connected. They died within less than 2 months of each other. I think that wherever they are, they are aware that you and I have connected, and are keeping an eye on the both of us.

Dear Marcia,

After I replied to your post, I read your other post about not receiving many replies. I do try to keep up with all of the posts and sometimes it is so difficult. I try not to miss any of the posts, even though I just read some of them without replying. It seems there aren't enough hours in the day. I usually read them backwards, starting from the ones that I know I haven't read the night before and working my way up. You had sent me an email when I lost Rusty and I appreciated that ALOT! It really made me feel better. Everyone here has been so kind and so willing to offer words of encouragement, although they are in such pain themselves. Hannah was a doll and so lucky to have had you for a mom.

Thinking of you.

Love,
Lynn

what a sweetie hannah was. and what a wonderful tribute. i too especially love the poem by jim. i just lost one of my beloved furkids two days ago and i know that i too, will be feeling the loss for a long time to come.

thank you for sharing your beautiful hannah with me.
stacy

Thanks so much to all of you who replied here, those of you who replied to my post ABOUT this post in Death & Dying, and to those of you I received PMs from. I guess I just got a little more sensitive than usual. I know I haven't always responded either, and I know that doesn't mean I don't care about everyone here, because I do.

I really do appreciate all your reassurances and especially your thoughts about Hanna, my precious little girl. I just love to say her name -- Hannah, Hannah Anna -- I'm sure you all know what I mean. I miss saying that name! I miss calling her, talking to her, seeing her, holding her, looking into those beautiful eyes, that sweet precious little face.

Thank you all for caring about me and Hannah (and Maggie and Sofie) (Sofie's the little feral cat I adopted a couple of months or so ago.)
Love,
Marcia

Hi "Angel" Marcia:

You know that I love you, my sweet friend......

And, I have always loved all of the poems you put on the site.....they do help to comfort.....

You're very, very special, Marcia!!!

God Bless You, Maggie & Sofie xoxoxo

p.s. ALWAYS, ALWAYS KNOW THAT YOUR SWEET HANNAH IS WITH YOU......IN YOUR HEART & SOUL!!!!

Thank you too, Denise -- very much -- for everything.
Love,
Marcia

Steph -- I have not seen that movie, so I didn't know it was a song. I found it though since you told me about it here. It's beautiful. Here's the song --
http://www.emp3world.com/mp3/24445/Watersh...n/Bright%20Eyes
I was able to download it for FREE without signing up for anything. I am so glad you told me about this Steph.
Love,
Marcia

Dear Marcia,

Once again your poems, and Jim's poem have touched my heart. And Baby Hannah, well, she touches my heart everytime I see her picture.
Love,
Kathleen

Hi Marcia,

I'm very honored that you chose to use my poem in your beautiful tribute to your sweet little Hanna Anna. Thanks for sharing the other poems too...they are beautiful and they do offer comfort to all of us who are hurting.

I'm with Denise, you are an "angel" Marcia....I do hope you realize that. You have helped so many of us and I think maybe we take you for granted sometimes and forget how much you are still hurting, too....and for that I do apologize.

I do think of you often, Marcia, please know that. You have been a tremendous help to me and I'll never forget your kindness. I haven't been on the board much lately, but you can always email or PM me....I'm always willing to listen and always like hearing from you.

Take care,
__Jim

Thanks Lynn, Stacy, and Kathleen032 for your kind words about my poem....I do believe it is a good description of how we all feel after we lose our furbabies.

That is a bueatiful honoring of Hannah. And the poem beautiful. I have enjoyed the poems that you have posted. I actually took one of Ann's and made a page with Moose. The loss of thier presence really never goes away, it is life changing for alot of us. Pamela

I wanted to mention that too. It was sung by Art Garfunkel (of Simon and Garfunkel fame). From the first time I saw Watership Down at the age of 9 or so to this very day, that song, in context with the cartoon, has never failed to make me cry rivers. It taught me an important lesson about death. Thanks to this song and this genius animated movie, I have been spared the bitterness of ever questioning and blaming God for the deaths of loved ones. If any of you have never seen this movie, I highly recommend it from the bottom of my heart

Marcia, have a wonderful sunny day sweetie. I hope and hope and hope that Punky and Hannah are ****** like you suggested! They'd be so cute together! hahaha!! He would adore her and absolutely worship the ground she walks on.

Love to all,
Punky's Mommie

Dear Marcia, I'm so very sorry,

I read your so special tribute to baby Hannah when you first posted it. The love for her that you expressed was so beautiful and so touching. When I read it there had been no replies at that time.

I think the reason I didn't reply at that time was that it was such a very personal message of love from your heart to baby Hannah's heart that I felt that anything I could post underneath it would seem trite in comparison.

I can honestly say that all the mommy's and daddy's and their babies are in my thoughts every day, and I see their pictures in my mind. (You have posted such beautiful one's of Hannah, such wonderful close-up pictures that I feel I really know her). I care so much for everyone here and my love goes out to all of us and our babies at rainbow bridge.

It was a feeling of inadequacy and not having the right words that stopped me posting, so please forgive me and please know that baby Hannah holds a very special place in my heart, she is the most beautiful little girl imaginable.

Bless baby hannah and her mommy

With love
jilly

Marcia,
I too am very sorry to not replying to you but you show so much love for Hannah that I thought what could I say that you haven't said to yourself or someone else. It has been 7 months on the 31 for me. You put so much love into all your posts, don't ever think that someone not responding doesn't mean that they don't care. It could mean many things and your post here shows that. Your tribute is beautiful beyond compare. I hope that one day I can do that for my boy. Hannah was and is the cutest little dog. My thoughts are with you during your journey!!!! And it made me cry!!
ChrissyW

I only had him a fairly short time, but I too felt like I had lost my best friend, next to my wife anyway, when poor little Whitey got so sick & had to be put asleep. Hang in there friend. I believe we will all feel better one of these days. God bless you!

Today is BabyHannah's ten month anniversary at the Rainbow Bridge and I wanted to bring this special tribute, written with love by her mom, Marcia, back to the top of this forum.

Hi Marcia,

I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and your sweet little BabyHanah today and that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I'm sending positive thoughts and a big hug your way.

You're such a special lady and what a wonderful mom you were to little Hannah Anna. You're also a great friend to all of us here at LS. May God bless and keep you.

__Jim

Dear Marcia,
I am thinking of you at this difficult time. I am thinking of your precious Hannah, and am sending a big hug your way. I wish there was some way I could comfort your heart. You have been a wonderful friend to me you were among the first to post to me when I first came to LS. We all love you so much. May your heart find some comfort in knowing we are there with you.
Love, Ann

Thinking of you, Marcia on this 10 month anniversary of precious Hannah's passing.

Love and Hugs,
Lynn

I too, have been thinking of your sweetheart today Marcia. I always think that Hannah was there helping my Luba out when she arrived on "the other side". It is a comfort.

Thank you so much Jim -- Lynn, Ann and Steph. Ten months and time just keeps going on without my girl. I miss her so.

Miss Hannah July 22, 1988 - April 19, 2004

My dear beautiful little girl dog. I love you and I miss you with all my heart. Oh, how I wish you were here with me, but as always I pray you are in Heaven waiting for me and that you are happy and free, playing with all your many, many dear friends with the sunshine sparkling down all around you.

Always know you were and are my very, very best girl ever. I love you sweet, precious bright-eyed girl.
Mommy

My Hannah -- she was a tiny, long-legged girl, seven pounds of love with a heart of gold, and how she loved me! I miss that love. I miss that girl. I planted a beautiful Calla Lily and some yellow daffodils on her grave yesterday.

I Only Wanted You
They say memories are golden
well maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.
A million times I needed you,
a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you
you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.
If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.
Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one,
the chain will link again.
--Author unknown

Oh Marcia, Hannah just gets more precious to me with each pictured you add. I wish we could stop time and send it back to the days when our babies were healthy and well. When we could surround them in our love and arms. There is nothing we can do except wait to be with them throughout eternity.
Love, Ann

Hi Marcia:

I'm sorry that I'm late for Hannah's 10 month Anniversary at "Rainbow's Bridge.....

That picture of her is just sooooooooo precious, I don't think I've seen that one before...

I have no doubt, my friend, that Hannah is up in Heaven, running around with all her buddies,
and they're all watching us down here,....."making sure that we're all doing alright"....

I can just tell that you and Hannah.......You two were meant for one another...

Love, Denise xo

Thank you Denise and Ann. You are both so very sweet!
Love,
Marcia

Dear Macia,

As always, what a beautiful poem for baby Hannah...and what an adorable picture of her. I know I'm a couple weeks late for Hannah's 10 month anniversary, but please know, I think of you and Hannah frequently.
Love,
Kathleen

Hi Marcia,

I just wanted you to know I'll be thinking of you and Hannah on this eleven month anniversary. I know how much you miss her and I know how difficult it is to know another month has passed since you last held your sweet little Hannah.

You always post such beautiful tributes to her and I just know she is so proud of the way her mom always manages to find another poem or song to post in rememberance of her.

I do hope things are becoming a little easier for you, Marcia. The passage of time does seem to have a way of helping us to learn to cope with the reality of our losses. I do think of you and Miss Hannah quite often. The two of you had such a special relationship. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers and I look forward to seeing what poem or song you post for Miss Hannah today.

Take care,
__Jim

Hi Marcia,

I too, am thinking of Hannah today. 11 months. It seems so unreal that so much time can elapse without a beloved friend.

You know, there is a little dog that looks a lot like Hannah that lives near the place where I work. I see him/her all the time, and I always think "There's the little Hannah dog".

I think that Hannah was one of the first to welcome my Luba on the other side. There is no doubt in my mind that they are together.

Take care - Steph

Dear Marcia, I too was thinking about little Hannah today. It is so wonderful that we think of our lost babies on this site. It proves that we will never forget each others' babies and that we have a strong bond together.
Love, Ann

Yes, Eleven Months! Eleven Months . . . ELEVEN MONTHS . . . so hard to believe I have not seen my little girl in such a very long, long time. Oh Steph, I do so wish I could see that little dog -- I would so much like to see a little dog that looks at least somewhat like my girl!

I wanted to make a special, special post to Hannah today, but alas! I have had computer problems all day long, I don't feel well, and I'm so tired today. Excuses, excuses . . . I don't know what is wrong with me.

I miss her so much. This morning I just cried and cried and cried and I felt as though everything that happened that last day all came back to me, even though I didn't let myself think about it all too much. There just aren't any words to express the way we really feel, are there? It's just a good thing that we do all understand. My heart has been filled with sadness today -- just weighted down.

I miss you my precious little Hannah. I want to put my arms around you and hold you up just so tightly to my neck and feel your little neck press up against mine just one more time. I want to see that little bitty beautiful head and face of yours and those little tiny teeth, that little bitty tongue that used to give me such good, good kisses rright on my face. That last night, you reached up so gently and kissed me right on tthe mouth. I'll never forget that and the look on your face and the sorrow I felt in my heart knowing . . . I remember every inch of your little tiny body, the scraggy hairs, the little Alfalfa hairs on top of your head, the silky hair, the little bumps that used to worry me so until I had the vet check them. Those tiny little feet of yours, those precious little ears that used to stand up straight sometimes -- that smile, that excited little wiggle of yours. Oh, and your little shiny black button nose -- that nose! Your nose! My nose, Hannah's little nose. I miss you my love, my heart.
I miss your little padding about, the little click of your nails, I miss you waiting for me, I miss knowing you were with me -- I am always aware that you aren't here in this house with me. Your presence, that feeling. My child, my child, my child, my beautiful little silver girl.

Once again, I am lost without you. I always knew I would be. Mommy's trying to do some good things with the rest of her life, and I'll keep trying baby girl. Sometimes it's all just so hard being here without you. Your picture's right above my head and sometimes I take it down and put it on the pillow beside me. But I want to HOLD YOU, YOU, my little tiny little dog, my friend. I love you with all my heart -- the best girl EVER, mommy's girl, always mommy's best, best girl. Always.
Mommy

This song is for you, and I know all the mommies and daddies of your little friends in heaven/Rainbow Bridge feel the same. Lord, please hold our babies tight until we're able to be with them once again. We love our babies so much -- you know, and you know how much we miss them.

YOU'RE THE REASON I'M LIVING
Bobby Darin

You're the reason I'm living
You're the breath that I take
You're the stars in my heaven
You're the sun when I wake
You're the reason I'm living
Oh you carry me through
All of life's little burdens
I'd be lost without you

A long long time ago
When I was down
Wo-o-o you picked me up
And showed me true love
Still could be found

You're the reason I do things
You're the things that I do
You're the reason I'm livin
I'd be lost without you

Come and tell me again
You're the reason I'm living
Oh you carry me through
All of life's little burdens
I'd be lost without you

Dear Marcia, I am sorry you are not feeling very well. Maybe you are just so sad over beautiful Hannah being gone for 11 months. I know how you feel about wanting to hold her and all the other things you used to do. We just have to hold on until the day we can be with our sweet babies again. Hugs.
Love, Ann

Dear Marcia,

I hope you feel better soon.

Sometimes I think I'll never truly be able to deal with the passing of my beautiful friend. I loved that rabbit so much. Even with our dog (75 lbs.) in the house, there's this horrible emptiness (and I love her as much as I loved Rusty). Good thing she's only 3 so I'll hopefully have quite a few years before I have to go through this again.

Ever since we buried Rusty, it's bothered me that he's out in the yard. I thought that feeling would go away but it hasn't. I asked my husband if he'd take him out of the ground so we can have him cremated. I think that will allow me to have some closure. I hope so. I do feel for you and wish you also could have some peace. There will always be animals in my life - dogs for sure but never another rabbit. I knew I'd be devastated when Rusty died, but never imagined it would be this horrible.

Please know that I'm thinking of you and your precious little girl. I don't know what we can do to make this any easier...........Just try to remember the happiness that Hannah had living with you.

Hang in there,

Love,
Lynn

Hi Marcia,

I wonder if things will ever get to the point of going through a day without thinking of them and feeling sad. I know I haven't had one. Even when I was away on a trip I did not have one day where I did not think of her. Can you imagine it ever happening?

I'm thinking of you and of your Hannah.

Steph

Dear Marcia,

I went back through some of your threads for Hannah...there all so touching with beautiful poems. I picked this thread because it had Jim's poem that he wrote for Little Man. I love that poem and thought it so fitting for Hannah's 15 month anniversary.

I know you miss Little Baby Hannah so much...she was such a sweetie. In going back through some of your threads I found a picture of her that Ann posted...Hannah was sitting in a chair with your 2 ##atiels perched above her. What a gentle spirit.

You're both in my thoughts on her 15 month anniversary.
Love,
Kathleen

Thank you Kathleen for thinking of Hannah and me on the 15th month anniversary. The poem Jim wrote is one of my very favorite poems ever.
Love,
Marcia