New Puppy Brings Joy And Sadness

Hello--
I haven't posted for a while because my boyfriend and I got a new dobe puppy a month ago...and oh my, he's a handful! I had forgotten what living with and training a puppy is like since Duke had been with us for 11 years. It's weird, our new pup has so many of the same facial expressions and habits that Duke had (and obviously he's the same breed only a different color)...but let me tell ya, this puppy is WILD! Duke was such a gentle, mellow boy (even as a pup--he slept in our bed from day 1)...this guy is challenging yet a sweetheart. All the hard work and training will pay off at some point, right?
I still find myself crying over Duke daily, much of the time they are tears of joy when I see our new puppy's face...yet sometimes I feel guilty for loving again. It has been 12 weeks since Duke passed this week...and I find myself still missing him so much.
This pup is a new beginning, but not a replacement by any means.

I still miss you Duke, every day. Mommy loves you.


--Angela

In Just A Couple Of Days

I'm not sure how to feel about this. On Saturday we are going to get our new doberman puppy and I'm so nervous. I am happy and exicted to bring him home, but on the other hand feel a bit guilty for doing this. It was 6 weeks ago yesteday since Duke passed.

I know this new puppy WILL NOT replace my Duke...he will have his own personality and presence, but I'm not sure why I feel so nervous about his arrival! I really need a special boy in the house to love again.

--Angela

Yesterday Was Hard

It has only been 4 days since we lost our baby, Duke. Yesterday his clay paw impression came in the mail from the vet...and I wasn't expecting it. I knew they would send it but I didn't realize it would come so quickly. I sobbed and sobbed and held it next to my heart. I then placed it next to two of our favorite pictures of him...one of him sleeping peacefully on the couch and one of him gazing into the backyard with the sunlight hitting his beautiful face.

I just want to feel better but my emotions are so up and down..I think I am doing ok then I break down. Please tell me this gets easier. I am feeling so much pain...I just want to kiss his face and hold him again. We miss our baby so much.

-Angela

When Is The Right Time?

When is the right time to bring a new baby into your life after losing the most important baby you ever had? My Duke can never, ever be replaced...and I would never even try to replace him.

I feel awful even thinking about it.

My Duke...the Red Doberman.

We had to let our beloved Duke go yesterday...he was 11 years old. He was diagnosed with Lymphoma that spread very fast and took over his body in less than a week. He also had cardiomyopathy and arthitis, which we had been treating. He told us it was time to go...it was the hardest thing my boyfriend and I have ever done. We are devastated...I feel so empty.