Loss Of Words

Hi everyone,
I lost my cat last monday and I'm still in a lot of pain.
I still feel like a zombie. Not sure how to feel, not sure if I'm really here on earth..... all i know is that i miss soue soue. I tried to go on w/ my life, tried to smile and laugh...... but I am just pretending.

I guess I should be grateful that he did not suffer. We were going to put him asleep (kidney failure), but he died on the way to the vet. I couldn't be in the car w/ my baby, i let my sisters and brother take care of that.............. but now, I feel guilty that he didn't see my face before he left earth.

Anyway, I just wanted to say that this is a great website and I am very grateful that there are such wonderful people like all of you out there.
and I am really sorry, from the bottom of my heart, that all of you had to suffer one way or another.

I tried to reply to some posts, I tried to comfort others, but I find it really hard............... there are so many of you that need comfort :-) so all I can say is "time will heal the wound" and just remember that all of our loved furry-kids are better off now than they were on earth....... no more growing old, no more diseases, no more pain.... instead, lovely weather, lots of food, healthy/young.... think about it, they're happy....
believing this makes me want to wake up everyday.

Ican't Believe It...

My cat (family cat) Soue Soue died on Monday the 13th.
He was 17 years old.
I'm unable to function.... i haven't gone to work, i haven't eaten, I haven't enjoyed anything the past few days..... My eyes are swollen from crying all the time.

I miss him so much. He was a real good cat. He lived a good life. I'm sad, really sad.
I know my post doesn't make any sense, that's because I don't make any sense...
i'm going crazy.......... how can i live w/o him. He was the most amazing cat........ and I saw him die.

it was natural (old age), but still.......... seeing him unable to walk, eat, drink, and finally unable to breath............ oh my god! i just ran and ran..... i didn't even know where I was going......................

i'm so depressed and hurt........ i really need someone to talk to me.