I See Her Everywhere

[FONT=Optima][SIZE=7][COLOR=blue]It's late afternoon of the day I had my beautiful Golden Girl, Mandy, put to sleep. She had lymphoma and last night was a terrible night for her - slept 4 hours on pain pills, then the next round of pills did no good at all - she couldn't sleep from 3 a.m. on. Everything I do and everywhere I go inside and out bring memories and the feeling that she is still there wagging her tail to greet me! I went out to water the plants and felt so empty without her looking for me and wagging her tail at the door.

It was the best decision, and should really have been done when she had her first night of heavy panting and sleep problems on Tuesday night - today is Sunday. Pain pills seemed to help, but this was an aggressive cancer and went fast. My vet came into her office at 8:30 a.m. today, Sunday, to end Mandy's pain. I couldn't ask for better treatment and caring from them.

My feeling of regret now is that I didn't recognize earlier (Tues) that there was absolutely no hope with this cancer and end it early before she suffered anymore. I know it's hard ... but the best in the end.