Doesn't Seem Real

I lost my kitty Jasmine in an accident almost 3 weeks ago. All day today I kept having to ask myself, "did it really happen?" "is she really gone?" Then I play in my mind over and over how it could have been prevented and I get to the point where I almost believe I can go back and fix things and she will be safe. I don't believe I'm in denial, because I've been deeply grieving for her. It's just that I keep thinking I'm going to see her come into the room. Or that I'll look down and there she will be. She was more of a dog than a cat. Always underfoot and wanting to see what you're doing. Open a closet and she's in it. Or a cupboard door or whatever. I miss her so much. I will explain what happened some other time, it's too painful to get into now. thanks for listening to my rambling...

bethk