5 Days At Rainbow Bridge

I think it's comforting to know that there's a heaven for our animals. Believing that our sweet Dora is happy and free has brought a massive wave of relief. These past 5 days have been post-euthanasia hell, but I believe Dora would not be truly happy if she knew she'd left us in such an unhappy state. Although her death was traumatizing to watch, I know her quality of life is better now. In her honor, I've written a farwell tribute.

Tribute To Our Bunny

TO DORA

We had our very own nose to nose kisses,
I talked to you about my day and you listened,
For hours you kept me laughing with your antics,
For that I thank you.

You greeted me by standing up in your cage and
offering a paw, You brought peace to our hectic days
and fun and laughter to our slow ones...
For that I love you.

Our time together was short and I'll always long for more but
God has other plans for you. My only wish for you is that
you'll bring someone else peace and you'll keep a star lit
for me...
With that i'll miss you.

Post-euthanasia Questions

Yesterday after having our beloved bunny put to sleep, all I could do the whole day was cry. Today I wasnt crying (up until now), but now I'm wondering to myself "Did I really give it my all?", "Did I make the euthanasia decision too soon?" I'm wracked with guilt and cant stop going back and forth from "I know I did what was best for our sweet Dora." to "God why did I do that?".
I'm sure we'd all like to go back in time and take just one more minute to tell our pet that we loved them and and that no other creature under the sun can claim that spot in your heart that they had. I've had other pets pass away, but this grief is so much more profound, I think because this experience was more personal and traumatizing. I go to sleep crying & thinking about Dora and wake up crying & thinking about her.

Im New And Grieving

Today an accident in our bunny's cage left her paralyzed and ultimately led to me having to have her euthanized. I was with her during her final moments and i've gotta say, i thought i was benefiting her by being there but, I cant shake off the moment she looked at me and breathed her last breath in my arms and when the vet said "She's done." I feel like i've been hit with a thousand tons of bricks. For those of you who wonder, to watch the life slowly drain out of your pet is the most traumatizing thing to go through. Part of you says "I dont want them to die alone with a stranger." and part of you wishes afterwards, that you wouldnt have put yourself through it. This is so confusing.