What's Going On?

Everyone is leaving? I need your help. Please don't go.

Can't Make It

The love of my life is gone.

I have lost my one true love, my purpose, my reason for doing everything I did. Suzy is my soul mate, my partner, my child, my life.

When I found this little 1-week-old blind kitten who was hours from death I was dying of anorexia. I was alone, broke and without hope. She saved my life. She gave me a reason to stay alive. I named her Suzy because I was born very ill too and I had survived so far.

I found her on a 100-degree day out in a field 15 yeards outside the farmhouse I was painting. I heard her cry over Vivaldi's Four Seasons blasting on my Walkman's earphones and the windows closed. She couldn't walk, see or smell. I raced her to the vet and said if she's in too much pain do what you have to do. As I walked down the hall to talk to the other vet, Suzy climbed out of the box I'd carried her in, and crawled down the hall to find me. The vet said, "We can save her, we have to."

The vet gave her months of intensive care. When I tried to pay the bill, he wept and said, "You don't owe me a thing. I've never seen love like that between and animal and a human ever before."

Suzy isn't (I can't say wasn't) a cat. She never acted like a regular cat -- never aloof or independent. She clung to me. She filled my empty house with love, light and laughter. She talked to me, played only with me, healed me, and loved me.

You know that feeling when you love something so much you can feel your heart burning with it. That's what it was like when we held on to one another. While at the vet, she would melt onto my shoulder, they would just give her vaccines from there because she wouldn't come down.

Suzy was only 6 years old.

I was compulsive about keeping her safe. She'd just gone to the vet for a small tremor and her blood work was fine. Then a month later, I woke up and there she was on the kitchen floor -- no trauma, no evidence, just gone.

I am devastated friends. I always said when Suzy goes I go. But I know I can't go because I have a doggie and three others cats. But I can't live without Suzy. I love my little girl with all my heart and soul, and I can't bear it.

Please talk to me.

Love and light,
Suzanne