My Beloved Finn Has Died...

Hi all...new here...was hurting very badly so came here...My beloved Finn...an orange tabby has died...about 36 hours ago...he was run over...I know, he should have been a house cat...and I have a girl housecat, but Finn was different...he HAD to go out...I didn't want it...but he was the total hunter...I live in the country in Vermont...and no matter how hard I tried, he would find a way so I gave up...my god, was he happy outside...and he made a serious dent in the evolution fabric via the birds and mice and rabbits...one time I saw him try to take down a deer..no kidding...just a big orange tabby lion...so he is dead...crushed by a car and it is tearing me to pieces...I am sobbing all the time at work...a grown man...I live in a household with another cat and my dog...Finn was our pack leader and now we feel rudderless...I have him buried here in our yard, but my god, I am hurting, we all are... I miss him terribly and cannot believe this has happened...any words of help from good folks who have been thru this please?