A "little" Dilemma

Well, I have posted here about my boy Brutus dying. It has been 6 weeks now since the terrible tragedy. I also posted that he was going to be a daddy and I was thinking out keeping a pup....well the pups were born and only one male is left. The other 3 males unfortunately died right after birth.

I had gotten some wonderfula advice from several of you on the message board about possibly keeping a puppy of my wonderful Brutus. I am now struggling with something different..."What if the puppy doesn't look ANYTHING like my Brutus?" I wanted a puppy that has at least some of the same features as my boy. What if that doesn't happen?

Maybe the one boy that survived is a "sign" from Brutus that I AM to actually keep this little boy of his? I don't know? I am kind of rambling at the moment. Please forgive the rambling thoughts. I am very confused. He is precious though and looks dark in color as his dad.

Confused,
Thanks.

Recent Loss :(

Hello everyone,

I am new to the site. I am glad I found this forum. I am Brutus's mom. He was a Rottweiler and my love. I do, also have 5 Siberian Huskies whom I love dearly as well. Brutus died this past Thursday Feb. 3rd, of Histiocytic Sarcoma. Before I new it, he was so ill. For the past 3 weeks I had seen him losing weight but his appetite was still intact. I brought him to a local vet, who said it was just heartworms making him lose weight and look down. The vet didn't even bother giving him a thorough physical (idiot). He did a blood panel and the results came back that his hematocrit was low, AGAIN the wonderful vet told me it was due to his heartworms (which obviously doesn't work b/c I would give him his meds every single month. Never skipped one ever). Anyway, I did not believe the vet. In my gut I knew there was something else. So I called one of the other vets to get a second opinion (one who actually knows something but lives farther away). He said to bring him in that there was no way heartworms in the beginning stages could cause this. I brought him in on Wednesday of last week. Thursday I found out the cancer had spread to his lymph nodes, spleen, and bone marrow. There was nothing I could do. I had to let Brutus go! I never thought that when he left home Wednesday that he would NEVER return. I have cried continuously since Wednesday. I can't believe my boy is gone.